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"I always lose interest right when I think I've found the right one."
He didn't seem uninterested when his warm hand rested on my stomach, keeping me awake, or when he whispered "You're adorable" in my ear as I sat there crying. He didn't seem uninterested when he said "Hurry back" every time I left the room. Or when he kissed me on the playground that night when I was still dizzy from the tireswing. We drove fast on the highway and listened to "Everlong" like it meant something. At least I had prepared myself for this.
This hurts more than I had expected it to. I can't even get an explanation from him. I wasn't his girlfriend. We were "together". Not even together. Borderline. But the feelings he resurrected made me sure it would last. I watched him do this to Cassie. I don't know the girl but I feel for her. I watched him ignore her phone calls when we were together, and perhaps that's why he has been ignoring mine. There must be someone new. Or there must be something repulsive about me that he just discovered.
He didn't seem uninterested when his warm hand rested on my stomach, keeping me awake, or when he whispered "You're adorable" in my ear as I sat there crying. He didn't seem uninterested when he said "Hurry back" every time I left the room. Or when he kissed me on the playground that night when I was still dizzy from the tireswing. We drove fast on the highway and listened to "Everlong" like it meant something. At least I had prepared myself for this.
This hurts more than I had expected it to. I can't even get an explanation from him. I wasn't his girlfriend. We were "together". Not even together. Borderline. But the feelings he resurrected made me sure it would last. I watched him do this to Cassie. I don't know the girl but I feel for her. I watched him ignore her phone calls when we were together, and perhaps that's why he has been ignoring mine. There must be someone new. Or there must be something repulsive about me that he just discovered.