I can't believe I'm using this thing
It's 2:20 in the morning, and I'm actually home. This is pretty new for me.
Normally I'd be at Rob's sleeping in his waterbed, but tonight I just wanted to be on my own. I'm glad I don't have an obsessive need to be there with him every night. I must admit though, I fall asleep much better with him beside me.
He stayed the weekend with me at my house a couple weeks back when my parents went out of town. We did our own thing during the day, then at night we went out together, had a good time, and came back to my house to sleep. I loved every minute of it. Life didn't drastically change because my parents were gone, and we were on our own. Things happened just as they usually did with the exception of having a house guest. When Rob stays with me, it feels completely normal, and that's what I love about our relationship. We don't say "I love you" all the time and wear out the phrase. The love we share is automatically understood by both of us. We've got all the time in the world, why rush things when we're so happy?
Everything Rob and I do feels perfectly natural. I'm fully myself around him; there's nothing that I feel the need to disguise or hold back. For the first time, I don't feel as though I have someone making my decisions for me. Instead Rob's confident attitude has taught me to be a more confident person myself, and has given me the courage to take charge of my life. I love him so much. I understand that for a relationship to continue moving forward, the people involved must be able to grow with one another and adapt to changes in the other person. This insane year has proven to me that Rob and I can do these things without any problem.
It scares me quite a bit to feel so secure with someone, because I've had a similar expierience before which left me heart-broken. However, I'm a little bit older now, and I've gained insight to some of my flaws in that past relationship. I'm trying my best not to make the same mistakes again.
Ramble on...
Normally I'd be at Rob's sleeping in his waterbed, but tonight I just wanted to be on my own. I'm glad I don't have an obsessive need to be there with him every night. I must admit though, I fall asleep much better with him beside me.
He stayed the weekend with me at my house a couple weeks back when my parents went out of town. We did our own thing during the day, then at night we went out together, had a good time, and came back to my house to sleep. I loved every minute of it. Life didn't drastically change because my parents were gone, and we were on our own. Things happened just as they usually did with the exception of having a house guest. When Rob stays with me, it feels completely normal, and that's what I love about our relationship. We don't say "I love you" all the time and wear out the phrase. The love we share is automatically understood by both of us. We've got all the time in the world, why rush things when we're so happy?
Everything Rob and I do feels perfectly natural. I'm fully myself around him; there's nothing that I feel the need to disguise or hold back. For the first time, I don't feel as though I have someone making my decisions for me. Instead Rob's confident attitude has taught me to be a more confident person myself, and has given me the courage to take charge of my life. I love him so much. I understand that for a relationship to continue moving forward, the people involved must be able to grow with one another and adapt to changes in the other person. This insane year has proven to me that Rob and I can do these things without any problem.
It scares me quite a bit to feel so secure with someone, because I've had a similar expierience before which left me heart-broken. However, I'm a little bit older now, and I've gained insight to some of my flaws in that past relationship. I'm trying my best not to make the same mistakes again.
Ramble on...