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Hello all! These past weeks have been insane. I was dating this guy, Brian. He was a great guy, but he was just too good -- innocent -- and inexperienced. All he wanted to do was spend time with family. Blah. Not my kinda people. But, I have since began dating someone else. We have been together for about a week and half and he is "in love." It is crazy. Everyone at work is sticking their noses in it and trying to figure out what has been going on. I kinda threw some fake names out there to get everyone off my case, but once they found out they went nuts. Sarah basically called me a whore and listed off all the guys I told her I was "with." I was fucking pissed. He is a sweet guy and he treats me really good. He told me if I go to San Diego next year he wants to go with me. He said if I end up going farther that he will wait for me and come visit and stuff. I don't know how to take it all. I like him, but I am not ready to be married to him. He reminds me too much of Eric. Possessive, controllive, and jealous. I don't know if I could really trust him if I went away. I guess it is hard to really get into it because I am madly in love with one of my good friends. I know he likes me too, but we have never discussed it. We are perfect for each other and everyone knows it. I don't know what is really holding us back. I think we are both too shy and too nervous to bring it up. So we just have this great chemistry and we kinda ignore it? Or I don't know. It is clearly obvious it is there, but maybe it is because we are leaving next year. But if it all works out, and we both go where we want to go we will only be an hour apart. I don't know. And I don't know what to do with the guy I am seeing. With guys like him, it is kinda like "Blood in, blood out." Once you're in it, thats it. Not that I don't want to be with him, it is just hard for me to handle to the possessiveness. And not to mention we don't really have the mental relationship, as I do with the other guy. If I could combine them, they would be the perfect guy. Ahhh.
But work is good. Drama as always, but people have quit, which has made it less tense and has made a more pleasurable work environment. For a while, I stopped working during the week and blamed it on school. A couple nights a week, I really had stuff going on. But I really wasn't working because I couldn't stand the people that were there. The whole little clique thing was out of hand. But now it is better and I am working a lot more. I figure I only have a month of school left and we won't be doing anything anyway. I just can't wait to get out of this fucking place. I am just tired of all the drama and all the bullshit.
But life is good...I hope all is well with everyone else.
But work is good. Drama as always, but people have quit, which has made it less tense and has made a more pleasurable work environment. For a while, I stopped working during the week and blamed it on school. A couple nights a week, I really had stuff going on. But I really wasn't working because I couldn't stand the people that were there. The whole little clique thing was out of hand. But now it is better and I am working a lot more. I figure I only have a month of school left and we won't be doing anything anyway. I just can't wait to get out of this fucking place. I am just tired of all the drama and all the bullshit.
But life is good...I hope all is well with everyone else.