hey wow! livejournal!
maybe if i could keep my mind off my so called 'problems' and focused more on existence and such, i would be more productive. i love my life right now, everything is so new and exciting.
so why is my brain and my emotional self shutting down right in the middle of all the excitement? i find myself utterly unmotivated to do things i love, things that will make me happy/inspired/awesome.
que strange, okay?
in the end it most likely has to do with issues such as being hopelessly single and celibate. is it so much to ask for a warm body to hold as i fall asleep? fuck i need a cat or something. or 12. ha! let the crazy cat-ladiness begin!
well marsha, the time is late, the writing is terrible, and since sitting on le ass all day didn't get the sculpture done a full day at the studio will be required tomorrow. yes. bright and early, i'm talking 8am early, i am getting up and actually going in. must finish sculpture by tues. not an option. the garden needs to be weeded, but no, its cries will have to go unheard. duty calls. hmf.
weeeeeeeeeeee sleeping pill kicking in...
so why is my brain and my emotional self shutting down right in the middle of all the excitement? i find myself utterly unmotivated to do things i love, things that will make me happy/inspired/awesome.
que strange, okay?
in the end it most likely has to do with issues such as being hopelessly single and celibate. is it so much to ask for a warm body to hold as i fall asleep? fuck i need a cat or something. or 12. ha! let the crazy cat-ladiness begin!
well marsha, the time is late, the writing is terrible, and since sitting on le ass all day didn't get the sculpture done a full day at the studio will be required tomorrow. yes. bright and early, i'm talking 8am early, i am getting up and actually going in. must finish sculpture by tues. not an option. the garden needs to be weeded, but no, its cries will have to go unheard. duty calls. hmf.
weeeeeeeeeeee sleeping pill kicking in...