Wish
I wish I was still on the cruise, I wish I was still on the cruise, I wish I was still on the cruise.
It's funny how this cruise was like night and day different from last year. Amazing, really. I had SUCH a good time. And because things are so sucky right now, I keep thinking about the cruise and wishing I was there. I'll have to post pictures soon.
This week coming is the last week that we are going to have Paw Paw Shopping Center. My heart is broken, literally. Sometimes I don't think that I am going to be able to continue breathing when I think about it. It hurts so much.
Tomorrow, Rob and I are going to go visit Sutilak in the hospital. I miss her so much. I can't believe that she is going to be gone for so long. At least Rob is going to stay at this location. If it was going to be with the both of them gone, I didn't even know if I wanted to stay here or not.
I don't know. Things are so freaking confusing.
I talked to Gregory last night on the phone for around 2 hours. And during those two hours, it was like my life made sense. I hate that things have to be as they are.
My Grandma is still in the rehabilitation center. I think only for a little while longer, though, so that's good. Still, I'm really concerned about my Dad. I just want to do something that is going to make him feel better, or make him smile. I try to send him little e-mails, or call him on the phone. He's not like he used to be though. I know that he is hurting and that hurts me even more.
What do I do?
It's funny how this cruise was like night and day different from last year. Amazing, really. I had SUCH a good time. And because things are so sucky right now, I keep thinking about the cruise and wishing I was there. I'll have to post pictures soon.
This week coming is the last week that we are going to have Paw Paw Shopping Center. My heart is broken, literally. Sometimes I don't think that I am going to be able to continue breathing when I think about it. It hurts so much.
Tomorrow, Rob and I are going to go visit Sutilak in the hospital. I miss her so much. I can't believe that she is going to be gone for so long. At least Rob is going to stay at this location. If it was going to be with the both of them gone, I didn't even know if I wanted to stay here or not.
I don't know. Things are so freaking confusing.
I talked to Gregory last night on the phone for around 2 hours. And during those two hours, it was like my life made sense. I hate that things have to be as they are.
My Grandma is still in the rehabilitation center. I think only for a little while longer, though, so that's good. Still, I'm really concerned about my Dad. I just want to do something that is going to make him feel better, or make him smile. I try to send him little e-mails, or call him on the phone. He's not like he used to be though. I know that he is hurting and that hurts me even more.
What do I do?