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No one really writes on here anymore do they? I guess we are all getting a little old and way too busy. Today was really long. I am so sick and tired of dissapointing everyone including myself. Overdrawn again on my bank account, that hasn't happened in a very long time and Pam is right the Ellensburg branch of us bank are bitches!!
If I got a job things would be going much better but no, there is nothing for me and nothing out there. I start my christmas extra money job which is going to really be my full income job next week.3 days a week isn't really going to give me much. Parents are all over me about not spending money in my normal way, and I am trying to cut back but...
Me: MOM I am trying to conserve! I am not spending anything when I go out! What do you want me to do? Just stay home and suffer to prove it to you?!!
Her: Well...Yeah!
Apparently going to the club and not buying drinks cause I don't have money isn't ok, they want me to have money and not go out and if I did, not drink(cause apparently I am an alcoholic)
I had 2 beers at shawns house and I got a buzz, amanda was right stop for a little while and I become a light weight.
I want to go to Ellensburg, it hurts my heart when I think about josh and about how far he is away but I have no money, no job and still have yet to completly clean the sitting room. I think that I will do that now and maybe they will take pity on me and let me go.
Life sucks, and this morning it seemed like it was going to be a better day.
If I don't make it, Josh good luck with your event, I am sure it will be great!
If I got a job things would be going much better but no, there is nothing for me and nothing out there. I start my christmas extra money job which is going to really be my full income job next week.3 days a week isn't really going to give me much. Parents are all over me about not spending money in my normal way, and I am trying to cut back but...
Me: MOM I am trying to conserve! I am not spending anything when I go out! What do you want me to do? Just stay home and suffer to prove it to you?!!
Her: Well...Yeah!
Apparently going to the club and not buying drinks cause I don't have money isn't ok, they want me to have money and not go out and if I did, not drink(cause apparently I am an alcoholic)
I had 2 beers at shawns house and I got a buzz, amanda was right stop for a little while and I become a light weight.
I want to go to Ellensburg, it hurts my heart when I think about josh and about how far he is away but I have no money, no job and still have yet to completly clean the sitting room. I think that I will do that now and maybe they will take pity on me and let me go.
Life sucks, and this morning it seemed like it was going to be a better day.
If I don't make it, Josh good luck with your event, I am sure it will be great!