Random thoughts
ladyjane has gone away again... *sigh*
I think I handled the parting better this time, because we've done it before and also because this time we know it't not going to be that long until we see each other again. Last time we thought it would be two months, though it ended up being just a little over one month. This time it's less than a month, so that's not so bad.
But still... My apartment feels empty now. And going to bed by myself seems so strange, despite the fact that it's what I've done most of my life. I was doing OK yesterday evening, distracting myself with a variety of things though not actually getting very much work done, but then I went in to go to bed and I just sort of stopped and looked at the bed and at the two pillows and all the sadness sort of welled up and hit me at once.
But we don't have too long to wait - 26 days now. We can manage that.
I just wish her response from U of T would come... We'd both feel so much better knowing it was a sure thing. It certainly looks very likely she'll be accepted, but likely and definite are not the same thing, and it will be much easier to plan for the future when we have that part of it nailed down, because that's what her getting a student visa to come here depends on.
. . .
*sigh* Still haven't done too much work so far today, and I'm afraid to check my voice mail, because a quick tour through the call display listings shows that a client who was already antsy about me taking too long on her site before the visit called today... Do I really want to hear that message? Just now, as I was typing this entry, the phone rang again, and the call display said "Unknown name, private number". I hate that. I never answer those.
Am I ever going to get my life in order to the point where there are no phone calls I have to be afraid of?
. . .
Seems strange that it's my birthday tomorrow. I'd nearly forgotten in the last day or so. I have no idea how many people are going to show up because I've gotten so many maybes. The reservation is for ten, but if all or even most of the maybes show there will be more than that. I should probably call Tortilla Flats and up the number, but then if the maybes don't show we might have a bunch of empty seats...
I think I handled the parting better this time, because we've done it before and also because this time we know it't not going to be that long until we see each other again. Last time we thought it would be two months, though it ended up being just a little over one month. This time it's less than a month, so that's not so bad.
But still... My apartment feels empty now. And going to bed by myself seems so strange, despite the fact that it's what I've done most of my life. I was doing OK yesterday evening, distracting myself with a variety of things though not actually getting very much work done, but then I went in to go to bed and I just sort of stopped and looked at the bed and at the two pillows and all the sadness sort of welled up and hit me at once.
But we don't have too long to wait - 26 days now. We can manage that.
I just wish her response from U of T would come... We'd both feel so much better knowing it was a sure thing. It certainly looks very likely she'll be accepted, but likely and definite are not the same thing, and it will be much easier to plan for the future when we have that part of it nailed down, because that's what her getting a student visa to come here depends on.
. . .
*sigh* Still haven't done too much work so far today, and I'm afraid to check my voice mail, because a quick tour through the call display listings shows that a client who was already antsy about me taking too long on her site before the visit called today... Do I really want to hear that message? Just now, as I was typing this entry, the phone rang again, and the call display said "Unknown name, private number". I hate that. I never answer those.
Am I ever going to get my life in order to the point where there are no phone calls I have to be afraid of?
. . .
Seems strange that it's my birthday tomorrow. I'd nearly forgotten in the last day or so. I have no idea how many people are going to show up because I've gotten so many maybes. The reservation is for ten, but if all or even most of the maybes show there will be more than that. I should probably call Tortilla Flats and up the number, but then if the maybes don't show we might have a bunch of empty seats...