Natzi Clapper
Wow so the ceremony was interesting..crazy teacher.."do you know how to clap"..ok chill there buddy lol
Today was ok..Jill and I planned our outfits
I think its time for another one of those boring LJ entries..
I hate when you like someone and their too blind to see it..Im not really talking about me right now so dont be asking questions..but it seems if you get too close to someone you can never get far away again..and then they just see you as a best friend..and usually best friends dont date..But if you dont get close enough people use the excuse "I dont know them good enough"..which Ive used many times..I think that Im looking for someone thats not there..like he dosent really exist..and if i start to like them i seem to skip over the butterflies and just go right to the being best friends..i hate that so i need to back away maybe make them WANT to talk to me..im not to sure how to do that exactly but gurantee I'll try..I also hate pretending to be someone that Im not..I do it alot..I guess Im just harder to crack open then most people..my closer friends know who the real me is..they dont even know anyone other than the real me..maybe it was just something that we had when we where together like when we first met..Jill is my bff..im really me when Im with her..strange..but enough of this subject shall we move on?..Im wavering on this line of love..I havent decided if its real or not..maybe people are just crazy to get married and date..maybe its cuz im too young but I just think that i dont have enough faith..not faith as in God faith but faith as in trusting other people..I always think something bad will happen if I let myself get too close
Therefore, <-- essay--> I think Im gunna open up to more people and maybe for just this once I wont care what anyone thinks and I wont be afraid of something thats not going to happen, and then maybe i will fall in "love"..or maybe love is just in the movies
I hate the movies cuz I want my life to be like that knowing what to say having comebacks right at the top of your head, your bestfriend falling in love with you and you miracously feeling the same way, always coming in first place at the sporting events and finding your true love in the stands watching you and then after the game is over you get kissed by him and he dosent even have to say a word..thats a movie..If my life was a movie it would be of nothing good happening and it would be a terrible endding with another problem that I would have to fix..and at the end of my movie it would say..
"This is real life"
Today was ok..Jill and I planned our outfits
I think its time for another one of those boring LJ entries..
I hate when you like someone and their too blind to see it..Im not really talking about me right now so dont be asking questions..but it seems if you get too close to someone you can never get far away again..and then they just see you as a best friend..and usually best friends dont date..But if you dont get close enough people use the excuse "I dont know them good enough"..which Ive used many times..I think that Im looking for someone thats not there..like he dosent really exist..and if i start to like them i seem to skip over the butterflies and just go right to the being best friends..i hate that so i need to back away maybe make them WANT to talk to me..im not to sure how to do that exactly but gurantee I'll try..I also hate pretending to be someone that Im not..I do it alot..I guess Im just harder to crack open then most people..my closer friends know who the real me is..they dont even know anyone other than the real me..maybe it was just something that we had when we where together like when we first met..Jill is my bff..im really me when Im with her..strange..but enough of this subject shall we move on?..Im wavering on this line of love..I havent decided if its real or not..maybe people are just crazy to get married and date..maybe its cuz im too young but I just think that i dont have enough faith..not faith as in God faith but faith as in trusting other people..I always think something bad will happen if I let myself get too close
Therefore, <-- essay--> I think Im gunna open up to more people and maybe for just this once I wont care what anyone thinks and I wont be afraid of something thats not going to happen, and then maybe i will fall in "love"..or maybe love is just in the movies
I hate the movies cuz I want my life to be like that knowing what to say having comebacks right at the top of your head, your bestfriend falling in love with you and you miracously feeling the same way, always coming in first place at the sporting events and finding your true love in the stands watching you and then after the game is over you get kissed by him and he dosent even have to say a word..thats a movie..If my life was a movie it would be of nothing good happening and it would be a terrible endding with another problem that I would have to fix..and at the end of my movie it would say..
"This is real life"