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[missliltoad]

Wow. I practically forgot about livejournaling. Guess it got boring because I lost any source of creativity that I had and felt totally fulfilled with the life I was living. Besides, there wasn't much other people were posting that I was interested in reading. No offense. But I've now decided that I MAY take it up again. So, I guess that means maybe I haven't really decided. But I'm here now. Right? Life has been tough lately. Not that you want to hear a sob story or anything, but my husband has been being harassed in a way that is way beyond what any person would see constitutional or within civil rights. Because of his being harassed, it has effected me and the kids unimaginably. Beyond that, I lost my Grandma in October. A week after that my other grandma had surgery for colon cancer. And this week my step-dad did as well. The family has been torn apart over the estate of my deceased Grandma, so I've practically lost my uncle and a cousin also. I've been having trouble getting to sleep lately. I've been staying up until about 1am everyday with the kids getting me up around between 7 and 8. I should consider myself lucky about that though, because I know friends whose kids get them up between 5 and 6. The company I worked for closed at the end of Jan 2010 and I've been looking for work "casually" since then. Recently, I've kicked up my efforts, but it seems I may not be a very good interviewer. Because after my interviews I haven't been contacted again, which usually is followed by a letter maybe three weeks or so down the road saying they've gone with another candidate. I was really looking forward to landing a job with UW Parkside, based on it's location, the type of work, and they have onsite daycare. But they said they were making the decision the day after my interview, but they never called. However, there was another job with the state (DOC to be specific) that I interviewed with a month ago. They jsut called me today, out of the blue, saying that they couldn't get a hold of one of my references and would like a new one. So I gave her the new reference, but I was just surprised after all that time that she is still considering hiring me. It would be great, I think, to work for the state. It will be a tough job working around convicted criminals (as opposed to college kids) but I'll make it work. My fear is where to take the kids and how they will be taken care of. My grandma is going to FL for the winter. It was delayed because of her surgery. She's inviting me to come stay with her for a little while with the kids, but it scares me taking the kids on a flight on my own, even though mom would be paying. Then I would also be concerned about how the job would pan out if I went out of state right now??? 
So I'm continuing to pray that God will prevail on all the aspects negatively affecting our life lately and that I have the strength and courage to conform to His will.