well now.....
its been quite some time since i posted anything, i think i was close to killing myself the last time i actually did so i thought i should come on here and say:
i'm not dead.
i'm pregnant.
5 months now.
i am madly in love with the father who i live with. i dont speak to my father, step mother or oldest little sister because i am 24 and chose to keep my baby and they can't except that. well... they dont have to.
i haven't used any of my behaviors since finding out (well i purged once cause i was scared and thats the only way i know how to deal). i def wouldn't say i'm anywhere near recovered because this thing still thrives in my head. my biggest fear is how badly i will relapse after i have the baby cause i know i will.
boyfriend is super supportive and more then i could ask for but foolishly, he thinks he will be able to keep from backsliding. in a way, that makes me love him even more.
i miss you all and will try to update more.
i'm not dead.
i'm pregnant.
5 months now.
i am madly in love with the father who i live with. i dont speak to my father, step mother or oldest little sister because i am 24 and chose to keep my baby and they can't except that. well... they dont have to.
i haven't used any of my behaviors since finding out (well i purged once cause i was scared and thats the only way i know how to deal). i def wouldn't say i'm anywhere near recovered because this thing still thrives in my head. my biggest fear is how badly i will relapse after i have the baby cause i know i will.
boyfriend is super supportive and more then i could ask for but foolishly, he thinks he will be able to keep from backsliding. in a way, that makes me love him even more.
i miss you all and will try to update more.