random thoughts...
yep so... everyone and everything just seems to be getting on my nerves lately.. something weird is going on around here. whatever. i've been having mixed feelings lately... like i just want to get the heck out of here already... i cant take it anymore... i almost am ready to just get summer started already so i can work and save up money for my apartment next year and to have money in general and to take my one class and just be busy... but at the same time, i dont think i'm ready to say goodbye to this freedom away from home yet nor am i ready to say goodbye to certain people... summer is going to be diffcult.. that's all i'm saying.. just three more months and i'll be done... it'll go by fast... the rest of the year did... so nothing exciting has been happening.. i really want to go to the fallout boy concert but i dont have the $30 is costs to go... so that sucks... i will go to warped tour this year.. i dont care what it takes.. i'll be there again! school's too easy... family's alright... i dont know... my mind is really messed up lately and i dont know what's going on... maybe it has to do with the fact i almost died last weekend... who knows. i'm kind of rethinking over a lot of things as well.. like marriage.. i dont think i ever want to get married anymore. the idea almost seems silly... spend your entire life devoted to one person. does it end stand true nowadays? i dont know what to think anymore. lately i have been living in the moment... only looking towards the near future... gah, i change my mood and my mind just as often as some changes their socks... i guess i need to stop looking for answers already and just get on living life.. oh how i wish it was summertime already...