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The past few days havent been that great.. I havent been in the best mood either. I've had some long talks with a couple of people which was good, and they really helped me a lot. I dont know what my problem is but im sick of everything. I havent been in the mood to do anything or talk to anybody. Everything is just so blah. I dont know.
I miss so many people, and so many things. I wish I could go back in time and change things I've said and done,but as we all know I cant. I miss the old me. I never seem to be too happy anymore and I want to change that. Im sick of this fake smile. And Im sick of the people who pretend to be there for me when in reality they really dont give two shits about me. Im not saying this to everybody, just in general, and it just doesnt seem like enough though. God Im so selfish. I want things back how they use to be. I want, I want, I want. Ya maybe I want a little too much, but im only human right?
I feel so empty. I Don't like this feeling. It scares me. I feel so alone. Maybe I am alone? Thats how it feels anyways.
I need to make something of my life, It feels like my life is just passing me by. How pathetic and sad.
I've been thinking too much lately. I have too much time on my hands, and I think thats part of my problem. Ive been trying to find something I enjoy doing to spend my time,but I just cant seem to find anything. Any ideas?
I had a nice long talk with my mom tonight about everything thats been going on, I hate talking to her about things, but she actually helped a lot. Im getting closer with my mom, finally. I've never been close with my mom, so this is a plus. Shes a good lady when she wants to be.
I know I need to be thankful for the things I do have, but many of the things I do have I wish i could trade for something less. Sometimes the less meaningful things mean more to me, if that makes any sense at all.
Okay, so I dont need sympathy from anybody, I just really had to let all my thoughts and feelings out, and this is my journal, so I just let it all out, and it felt pretty good. I just couldnt keep it in any longer. So Im sorry if you read that and wasted your time. But if you did take the time to read this, thank you and I do appciate it.
I miss so many people, and so many things. I wish I could go back in time and change things I've said and done,but as we all know I cant. I miss the old me. I never seem to be too happy anymore and I want to change that. Im sick of this fake smile. And Im sick of the people who pretend to be there for me when in reality they really dont give two shits about me. Im not saying this to everybody, just in general, and it just doesnt seem like enough though. God Im so selfish. I want things back how they use to be. I want, I want, I want. Ya maybe I want a little too much, but im only human right?
I feel so empty. I Don't like this feeling. It scares me. I feel so alone. Maybe I am alone? Thats how it feels anyways.
I need to make something of my life, It feels like my life is just passing me by. How pathetic and sad.
I've been thinking too much lately. I have too much time on my hands, and I think thats part of my problem. Ive been trying to find something I enjoy doing to spend my time,but I just cant seem to find anything. Any ideas?
I had a nice long talk with my mom tonight about everything thats been going on, I hate talking to her about things, but she actually helped a lot. Im getting closer with my mom, finally. I've never been close with my mom, so this is a plus. Shes a good lady when she wants to be.
I know I need to be thankful for the things I do have, but many of the things I do have I wish i could trade for something less. Sometimes the less meaningful things mean more to me, if that makes any sense at all.
Okay, so I dont need sympathy from anybody, I just really had to let all my thoughts and feelings out, and this is my journal, so I just let it all out, and it felt pretty good. I just couldnt keep it in any longer. So Im sorry if you read that and wasted your time. But if you did take the time to read this, thank you and I do appciate it.