Oh boy, this is not good.
This is the turmoil of my exsistance. BOYS!!!! God, I've gotten hit bad this time. KR is fantastic. He is someone I've always kinda liked but I think freshman year I was a little too inmature for him. I confess it, I was annoying as a freshman and I was annoying last year to some people. But I have grown up over the summer. I had a hard summer and I have learned things that I didn't know before. And I think I have grown up enough for KR. I think we could be something but I don't know. I can't ever get up enough courage to ask a guy out or even tell them that I like them. I hate when this happens. I always do it. But at least its one this time. Not too many. There was one time when I liked four, yes 1 2 3 4, equally at the same time. That was really confusing but I was a stupid freshman and that's what happens to some of them. Namely me. But annoying and stupid are the two words that I think that best describe me at fifteen. Ah, fifteen. *Memory moment.* Alright, done with that. God I'm so old but growing out is good. I'm glad I'm going up. But I still really enjoy watching "Malcolm in the Middle" and "That 70's Show" but at least my tastes have changed. Except my taste in men, which is odd, for me. But I like what I like. End of story. Period. But growing up has been a crazy adventure but it's lasted so long that it doesn't seem like an adventure when it's happening, onl when I look back on it. So it doesn't count as the adventure I'm waiting for. I think I've dug myself into a nice hole with this whole KR thing. It's not good because I can't think of anything else. I would rather sit around and fantasize about what making out with KR and laughing and just cuddling and such. Ah, isn't lovely. AHHHHHHH! Why me!?!?!?! Why!!!!???? I can't take this anymore!!!! God, I want him sooo bad. Damn these teenage hormones. Damn them! DAMN THEM!!!!! Alright, feeling better now..... I'm still waiting adventure. Dum dee dum. That would be a waiting noise. I'll keep you posted.