Mistakes
I almost made a HUGE mistake this afternoon. I logged onto MySpace and started reading around and what-not. All of a sudden, without even thinking about it, I ended up on Matt's site. What?!? Why on Earth did I do this?? It's not as if I miss him. I actually started writing a long e-mail to him and it occurred to me that I would be starting the vicious cycle all over again. In my ears was Crystella's voice listing all of the things he's done to me. Why would I want that back? I just don't know. I'm glad I actually stopped myself. It was the right thing to do. I really need to cool off from the events of this afternoon. I lost yet another friend. I guess I saw Matt as the rebound friend. But it's all so unnecessary. So I'm going to analyze my decisions (Matt and the recent friend loss) and make some changes. It's times like this when I wish I lived somewhere near Westland, Michigan. *sigh*