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I am really begining to notice the contrast between my friends. Sometimes I just wish I could integrate them all, but I know that would never work out. I get tired of immaturity. Sometimes I need it though. I need to just be loud and act stupid and cause ruckus. Get that out of my system. I have friends that I can do that with. But mostly those friendships aren't real. I wouldn't ever run to those people if I ever needed anything more than a good time. What I really love are these friends that are so real. People that I can sit in silence with and still feel comfortable. People that are content with sitting around with some music playing and conversation going. Conversation about things I care about; things I know. Not all this mundane bullshit and gettoknowyou crap.
I'm getting really lonely. I want someone to hold me. I want someone that will listen to any kind of music, as long as it pleases their ears. I want someone that doesn't mind going to a show when they won't know anybody there. I want someone that understands what I mean when I say everything about me contradicts itself. I want someone that doesn't get mad at me for foolish things like drugs; unless they're just being protective and preventing me from getting addicted to anything. I want someone that understands my need to explore &experience everything. I want someone who is tired of smoking all things; even if they still do. I want someone that will stay up late with me. I want someone that reads philosophy. I want someone that likes computers &the internet. I want someone that doesn't mind not having any set plans. I want someone that has ambition. I want someone whose life will actually go somewhere but still has loads of fun. I want someone that knows when to keep their mouth shut. I want someone artistic; whether it be drawing or writing or photography. I want someone with an impecable sense of style. I want someone with morals. I want someone that is versatile; and can get along with different kinds of people. I want someone that understands that sometimes I need to sit alone and watch. I want someone that thinks television is stupid. I want someone with hair I can run my fingers through. I want someone that likes to party, but still keeps to their responsibilities. I want someone that will debate with me. I want someone intelligent. I want someone that will tell me "no." I want someone that will decide when I can't. I want someone that knows what they're talking about. I want someone that puts value in respect and respecting. I want someone that can take care of themselves. I want someone that doesn't try to help me when I don't need it. I want someone that doesn't exist.
I'm getting really lonely. I want someone to hold me. I want someone that will listen to any kind of music, as long as it pleases their ears. I want someone that doesn't mind going to a show when they won't know anybody there. I want someone that understands what I mean when I say everything about me contradicts itself. I want someone that doesn't get mad at me for foolish things like drugs; unless they're just being protective and preventing me from getting addicted to anything. I want someone that understands my need to explore &experience everything. I want someone who is tired of smoking all things; even if they still do. I want someone that will stay up late with me. I want someone that reads philosophy. I want someone that likes computers &the internet. I want someone that doesn't mind not having any set plans. I want someone that has ambition. I want someone whose life will actually go somewhere but still has loads of fun. I want someone that knows when to keep their mouth shut. I want someone artistic; whether it be drawing or writing or photography. I want someone with an impecable sense of style. I want someone with morals. I want someone that is versatile; and can get along with different kinds of people. I want someone that understands that sometimes I need to sit alone and watch. I want someone that thinks television is stupid. I want someone with hair I can run my fingers through. I want someone that likes to party, but still keeps to their responsibilities. I want someone that will debate with me. I want someone intelligent. I want someone that will tell me "no." I want someone that will decide when I can't. I want someone that knows what they're talking about. I want someone that puts value in respect and respecting. I want someone that can take care of themselves. I want someone that doesn't try to help me when I don't need it. I want someone that doesn't exist.