Jenni Should Never Be Left on Her Own. EVER.
Oh dear.
That seems to be what I've been thinking an awful lot lately.
The easy answer would be to just lay down and think every once and a while, but I'm too dumb for that.
That.
And it is physically impossible for me the say 'no'.
It shouldn't be that difficult but, at the time, it always seems easier to just go along with shit than saying it.
I'm really bad at rejecting people.
I'm really good at giving them the wrong ideas.
Therefore, I am a terrible person.
Shonna was totally right when she called me a liar ... It makes me think about the photograph of me from when I was a kid and went to a medival fair: I pretended to be a criminal and had to wear a board with my crime on it. When I first dug the photo out of a box, I wondered why I wasn't wearing a sign that said 'urchin'. Now I understand that apparently other people can smell my future, even though I apparently can not.
And this whole Jared thing is really getting me down.
If it's not going to be him, then I really don't want to bother with anybody.
Especially the person that I gave all the wrong ideas yesterday.
That seems to be what I've been thinking an awful lot lately.
The easy answer would be to just lay down and think every once and a while, but I'm too dumb for that.
That.
And it is physically impossible for me the say 'no'.
It shouldn't be that difficult but, at the time, it always seems easier to just go along with shit than saying it.
I'm really bad at rejecting people.
I'm really good at giving them the wrong ideas.
Therefore, I am a terrible person.
Shonna was totally right when she called me a liar ... It makes me think about the photograph of me from when I was a kid and went to a medival fair: I pretended to be a criminal and had to wear a board with my crime on it. When I first dug the photo out of a box, I wondered why I wasn't wearing a sign that said 'urchin'. Now I understand that apparently other people can smell my future, even though I apparently can not.
And this whole Jared thing is really getting me down.
If it's not going to be him, then I really don't want to bother with anybody.
Especially the person that I gave all the wrong ideas yesterday.