drugs.
i used to take about 12 pills a day for my ulcers......and lately, they have been hurting me again. i just have so many things running through my head. i went to the dr yesterday, and now i'm taking medication again. for my muscle pains and stomach. i hate taking medication. i took the muscle relaxer last night and i still feel not entirely here right now. i'm half asleep! but, boy, did i have a good nights sleep.
work has been crazy. there is supposed to be 4 people within our risk management group, and one of the gals has been on a medical leave of absence for about 3 months.....we've been working short handed all these months and she was supposed to come back in a couple of weeks. now we come to find out that she's not coming back and we're not hiring another person to cover her spot until next year. that means, more work b/c we have to cover the regions that she is responsible for. i have about 90 claims right now.....and it's not getting better.
my car is wrecked. gots no transportation....but, fel and i are managing with sharing one car. he's my lifesaver. :) when i got into the accident, we wondered why my airbags didn't come out.......the adjuster guy came out to look at the car today and said that the airbags were taken out. which means that the person we bought the car from in OR, didn't input the airbags back in, or whatever the case......it's a federal offense and now they are probably going to investigate on it and even worse, he said that it devalues my car. IT AIN'T MY FAULT! i didn't know! damn it, i could have been seriously hurt! i don't know what's the deal.... ugh! this just adds to my stress!
the thing that makes me mad the most, is that all of this is making me so stressed that it's taking away from the excitement of knowing that we're moving into our new house next week! we just did our walk through yesterday, and it's sinking in that we're moving in! i'm even more stressed that i haven't done any packing! i want to be organized when we move in, not cluttered! i don't have time to do all the things that i need to! and i'm pre-occupied having so many other thoughts! plus, our loan stuff still has one more step before we can sign all the closing papers......and we still don't know what day that will be!
anyways, i should be working. so, i guess i'd better go do that. i'm overloaded.
a good friend of mine wrote me a card and i made a very good point....
"you have to tell yourself over and over again that things happen for a reason. maybe the accident was a way to test your dependence on fel." "no matter the life-test, i know you will get through it with poise and grace."
i am definitely realizing more and more how much fel means in my life and he's been more than supportive and caring for me in all of this. i know i'll get through this, and i'm so appreciative of having those around me to help me through it.
things do happen for a reason, and no matter the reason, i'm sure things will turn out for the better.
work has been crazy. there is supposed to be 4 people within our risk management group, and one of the gals has been on a medical leave of absence for about 3 months.....we've been working short handed all these months and she was supposed to come back in a couple of weeks. now we come to find out that she's not coming back and we're not hiring another person to cover her spot until next year. that means, more work b/c we have to cover the regions that she is responsible for. i have about 90 claims right now.....and it's not getting better.
my car is wrecked. gots no transportation....but, fel and i are managing with sharing one car. he's my lifesaver. :) when i got into the accident, we wondered why my airbags didn't come out.......the adjuster guy came out to look at the car today and said that the airbags were taken out. which means that the person we bought the car from in OR, didn't input the airbags back in, or whatever the case......it's a federal offense and now they are probably going to investigate on it and even worse, he said that it devalues my car. IT AIN'T MY FAULT! i didn't know! damn it, i could have been seriously hurt! i don't know what's the deal.... ugh! this just adds to my stress!
the thing that makes me mad the most, is that all of this is making me so stressed that it's taking away from the excitement of knowing that we're moving into our new house next week! we just did our walk through yesterday, and it's sinking in that we're moving in! i'm even more stressed that i haven't done any packing! i want to be organized when we move in, not cluttered! i don't have time to do all the things that i need to! and i'm pre-occupied having so many other thoughts! plus, our loan stuff still has one more step before we can sign all the closing papers......and we still don't know what day that will be!
anyways, i should be working. so, i guess i'd better go do that. i'm overloaded.
a good friend of mine wrote me a card and i made a very good point....
"you have to tell yourself over and over again that things happen for a reason. maybe the accident was a way to test your dependence on fel." "no matter the life-test, i know you will get through it with poise and grace."
i am definitely realizing more and more how much fel means in my life and he's been more than supportive and caring for me in all of this. i know i'll get through this, and i'm so appreciative of having those around me to help me through it.
things do happen for a reason, and no matter the reason, i'm sure things will turn out for the better.