the first cut is the deepest.
i doubt anyone even reads this anymore..
so this summer, as you all know, ive become a date-aholic. Ive dated 4 guys at the same time, even stooping to doing to lunch with one, and dinner with the other. I tried to convince myself that one of these guys was actually worth liking..but he wasn't, just a waste of time like the rest. A distraction, until the one person who i want and can't have decides that hes wrong, and that he can give me a 2nd (or maybe 12th) chance.
he puts me through a roller coaster. When we were going out, i even loved him so much i couldn't think of anything else, or i hated him. I started hanging out with his best friend, thinking [hoping?] it would make him jealous. But no, he was geniunely happy for me. Surprsingly, he told me he had a girlfriend, and i didnt care. Honestly i didnt.
until i realized, that he was in love with someone that wasn't me.
and now.
im sick of writing.
so this summer, as you all know, ive become a date-aholic. Ive dated 4 guys at the same time, even stooping to doing to lunch with one, and dinner with the other. I tried to convince myself that one of these guys was actually worth liking..but he wasn't, just a waste of time like the rest. A distraction, until the one person who i want and can't have decides that hes wrong, and that he can give me a 2nd (or maybe 12th) chance.
he puts me through a roller coaster. When we were going out, i even loved him so much i couldn't think of anything else, or i hated him. I started hanging out with his best friend, thinking [hoping?] it would make him jealous. But no, he was geniunely happy for me. Surprsingly, he told me he had a girlfriend, and i didnt care. Honestly i didnt.
until i realized, that he was in love with someone that wasn't me.
and now.
im sick of writing.