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GOAL COMPLETED AND CAN ONLY GET BETTER!
Hi! So, I posted my list about a month ago. It only had 17 goals on it, and it still has only 17 goals on it.
BUT. I COMPLETED ONE. I COMPLETED A GOAL I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER COMPLETE.
But I completed it, AND, it was my first one!
What was that goal, you ask? I'm putting it under a cut to be more suspenseful! :DDD
8. Talk to the gorgeous boy on my train (really scared about this).
I COMPLETED IT! COMPLETE COMPLETE COMPLETE.
I "facebooked" him first, extremely unsure of what kind of response I'd get.
I GOT ONE BACK, AND IT WAS REALLY NICE. We kept talking and found out we have
AN UNBELIEVABLE AMOUNT OF SIMILARITIES AND COMMON INTERESTS.
Saw him on the train on Tuesday, but we didn't get to speak, only exchanged smiles, a couple of laughs
and our names because of the fact that the train was so crowded and I wasn't standing near him.
However. Today. TODAY!!! I was standing on the platform and he was with his friends and I was incredibly nervous,
as he was with his friends. And why wasn't he coming up to me? Well, the train was pulling up and I thought "fuck it" (excuse my language!) and went up to him, where he was sitting behind me, and it WENT FROM THERE. HE GOT ON THE SAME CARRIAGE AS ME, LEAVING HIS FRIENDS TO GO ON ANOTHER CARRIAGE. AND. WE TALKED. SPOKE. LISTENED TO HIS MUSIC TOGETHER. TEASED EACH OTHER. EVERYTHING.
I know that I sound like a silly little girl. And I am just that, 16. Turning 17 in October. SO I HAVE EVERY RIGHT :D :D :D :D :D
I am just so proud of myself, naturally I am very shy around strangers (he isn't really a "stranger" now, I guess though) but I DID IT.
And it turned out SO good, I don't know what I was expecting to happen but what did happen was fabulous, everything was awesome about it, we got along well, and all I can hope for, wish for, and know for, is that he feels the same way about it. Of course, I was nervous about my hair (my curls were being stupid today), my face (he's a lot taller than me, so I was up against him looking up at him) and generally the way I was responding and everything. Though I do suppose it's natural for me to be making him out to be the "better" one, the "more beautiful" one thus making me feel "inferior" to him, making me feel I need to be "good enough" for him. And I guess THAT stems from being a tad insecure, and also, perhaps, normal human behaviour? Gagh? I needn't be comparing myself to him!
ahahaha... sorry for the long post. And me babbling on about it. I used to go to a co-ed school, but have been at an all girls school for the past two years, so meeting a new boy is a big thing for me. I've almost forgotten what it's like to make a new friend with a boy. My guy friends know me well, so I just act like a crazy person with them, and aghhhh! Max (his name is Max, omnomnom) is also crazy. ARGH. I have to quit worrying, things are good, life is good. Max and me are good. New friends. Yum. New friendship. Delicious. THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER FROM HERE.
Okay. Shutting up now. I need to start on my other goals D:
XD
Thankyou :)
BUT. I COMPLETED ONE. I COMPLETED A GOAL I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER COMPLETE.
But I completed it, AND, it was my first one!
What was that goal, you ask? I'm putting it under a cut to be more suspenseful! :DDD
8. Talk to the gorgeous boy on my train (really scared about this).
I COMPLETED IT! COMPLETE COMPLETE COMPLETE.
I "facebooked" him first, extremely unsure of what kind of response I'd get.
I GOT ONE BACK, AND IT WAS REALLY NICE. We kept talking and found out we have
AN UNBELIEVABLE AMOUNT OF SIMILARITIES AND COMMON INTERESTS.
Saw him on the train on Tuesday, but we didn't get to speak, only exchanged smiles, a couple of laughs
and our names because of the fact that the train was so crowded and I wasn't standing near him.
However. Today. TODAY!!! I was standing on the platform and he was with his friends and I was incredibly nervous,
as he was with his friends. And why wasn't he coming up to me? Well, the train was pulling up and I thought "fuck it" (excuse my language!) and went up to him, where he was sitting behind me, and it WENT FROM THERE. HE GOT ON THE SAME CARRIAGE AS ME, LEAVING HIS FRIENDS TO GO ON ANOTHER CARRIAGE. AND. WE TALKED. SPOKE. LISTENED TO HIS MUSIC TOGETHER. TEASED EACH OTHER. EVERYTHING.
I know that I sound like a silly little girl. And I am just that, 16. Turning 17 in October. SO I HAVE EVERY RIGHT :D :D :D :D :D
I am just so proud of myself, naturally I am very shy around strangers (he isn't really a "stranger" now, I guess though) but I DID IT.
And it turned out SO good, I don't know what I was expecting to happen but what did happen was fabulous, everything was awesome about it, we got along well, and all I can hope for, wish for, and know for, is that he feels the same way about it. Of course, I was nervous about my hair (my curls were being stupid today), my face (he's a lot taller than me, so I was up against him looking up at him) and generally the way I was responding and everything. Though I do suppose it's natural for me to be making him out to be the "better" one, the "more beautiful" one thus making me feel "inferior" to him, making me feel I need to be "good enough" for him. And I guess THAT stems from being a tad insecure, and also, perhaps, normal human behaviour? Gagh? I needn't be comparing myself to him!
ahahaha... sorry for the long post. And me babbling on about it. I used to go to a co-ed school, but have been at an all girls school for the past two years, so meeting a new boy is a big thing for me. I've almost forgotten what it's like to make a new friend with a boy. My guy friends know me well, so I just act like a crazy person with them, and aghhhh! Max (his name is Max, omnomnom) is also crazy. ARGH. I have to quit worrying, things are good, life is good. Max and me are good. New friends. Yum. New friendship. Delicious. THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER FROM HERE.
Okay. Shutting up now. I need to start on my other goals D:
XD
Thankyou :)