this is far cooler than myspace.
so here i am, back in new mexico, sitting in my dorm room. i have this amazing desire to make my car faster though its stupid because what i want to do, the power i need to hit is just unattainable. i have a job and all and it may be time to say fuck it and buy the vette. because i really need a vette. its the only kind of therapy i have anymore. just taking it easy and warming the car up to my favorite turn onto the interstate and walking the car out sideways a bit rolling on the throttle. bam then i hit third and soon after 4th. hit about 90 and slow down to merge. or i love taking the twisties to santa fe. theres nothing up there to do, especially at the times of my midnight blasts but its all worth the drive. turn in points at 90 tracking out at 110. the long straights that i can easily hit 130 and brake with plenty of time for the up comming 80mph corner. i love love love it. here i am today though... pretty depressed. i guess its kinda the same feeling i had when maddy and i broke up forever ago. just havent had that kind of suck since really... where it seems everything is piling up but i dont know what. im playing a lot of basketball, and considering switching over to a JuCo to play ball. its one thing that i have the determination to be the best at. ive played about 20 hours since monday at 12 and im set out to play another 3 tonight and another 6 to 8 tomorrow. ill probably hit a solid 30-35 hours this week and its just the start. ive gained weight and im growing. i went through another one and a half shoe sizes this month and am at a solid 5'11". i dunk easily, even on people now and its a thrill. hearing the rim come down and snap back in to place as you fall back to earth between 2 puzzled defenders is something i dont even get driving. maybe thats why i want a lot of power and torque right now... to get that same sensation driving that i do dunking. eh, maybe this is all about missi. i finally said fuck it and decided not to talk to her anymore. been stood up several times this week by a few girls that apparently have feelings for me. meh, whatever. its stupid. i should just start to go back to class again and focus on school. i just want something now, i want to see results now.