Same Day... and another update
Dear Prongs,
I really have nothing to do.. and i only keep my computer on because the light is somewhat comforting and I'm listening to Music..
I have an odd feeling inside, like somethings been ripped from me and it's left a deep scar that's been re opened.
I am on the verge of having an emotional break down or just jumping out my window and running away as far as I can from reality..
Reality hurts..
This feeling is just so frustrating I can't understand, I feel so lonely, depressed, self-hating, and a load of other emotions all in one go!
I tried talking to my imaginary person, I tried role playing I tried ignoring it.. I tried hurting myself and I am just so confused I really want to be with someone right now... to hug a friend and sit in a comfortable silence but right now I just sit alone in the smallest corner I can find and stare at my now blank walls..
I really do feel so down, and it's times like this I wish I did go to a physchologist but without my parents knowing or anything.
one more thing, don't laugh, I actually contemplated suicide a moment ago before I immediatly banished that thought from my mind.. I need help
I want to write I want to die, but I know I don't.. but I feel like I am dying..
~Zoe~
I really have nothing to do.. and i only keep my computer on because the light is somewhat comforting and I'm listening to Music..
I have an odd feeling inside, like somethings been ripped from me and it's left a deep scar that's been re opened.
I am on the verge of having an emotional break down or just jumping out my window and running away as far as I can from reality..
Reality hurts..
This feeling is just so frustrating I can't understand, I feel so lonely, depressed, self-hating, and a load of other emotions all in one go!
I tried talking to my imaginary person, I tried role playing I tried ignoring it.. I tried hurting myself and I am just so confused I really want to be with someone right now... to hug a friend and sit in a comfortable silence but right now I just sit alone in the smallest corner I can find and stare at my now blank walls..
I really do feel so down, and it's times like this I wish I did go to a physchologist but without my parents knowing or anything.
one more thing, don't laugh, I actually contemplated suicide a moment ago before I immediatly banished that thought from my mind.. I need help
I want to write I want to die, but I know I don't.. but I feel like I am dying..
~Zoe~