The Internal Workings of an Empowered Goddess
I'm sitting at Starbucks......yes yes I know.....I should be shot
But its away from the familia, and since I've been home on break, it has become my sanctuary.
I'm wearing this ring I bought from Panoply & Talisman...awesome new (or sort of new) place in the Paseo....I highly recommend...
It's scribed in Sanskrit and says "Peace, Love and Happiness to You and the World"...
I find myself wondering when we will ever have peace again....or at least some sort of general understanding of our brethren and a mutual "leave each other the fuck alone" treaty....or something along those lines...(wonders if our country would be taken seriously if we started writing treaties with titles such as "leave each other the fuck alone")...
Anyways, I have been trying to figure out away to continue having a life, uninterrupted by the uber-depressing "style-ings" of my parents.
So far,
I'm failing.....and I know their problems are not my fault, nor should I feel obligated to fix their problems.....but GoDamnitt.....I'm either going to have to fix them or remove them from my life...and this is hard for the Goddess to comprehend.
I have always loved my family and don't want to spend...However long I live...dealing with their ridiculousness until they die.....its a cycle...I see my parents try to escape the same problems they have with my moms parents and their own personal demons for the past 25 years....
is this what we do?....just put up with our loved ones debilitating faults until it brings you down with them, or...
tell them how it is, reassure your undying love and get on with your life?
I keep shooting for the latter or the two, but I keep getting stuck in the web of impossibilities...
There is a certain way to broach these kinds of subjects....and I don'twant to mess it up (like the last time....angst-y friendship issues + poetry night = DOUCHBAG,DOUCHEBAG, DOUCHEBAG)
...
eh something will happen...
hopefully before the next 25 years occur
....if the worlds around that long
But its away from the familia, and since I've been home on break, it has become my sanctuary.
I'm wearing this ring I bought from Panoply & Talisman...awesome new (or sort of new) place in the Paseo....I highly recommend...
It's scribed in Sanskrit and says "Peace, Love and Happiness to You and the World"...
I find myself wondering when we will ever have peace again....or at least some sort of general understanding of our brethren and a mutual "leave each other the fuck alone" treaty....or something along those lines...(wonders if our country would be taken seriously if we started writing treaties with titles such as "leave each other the fuck alone")...
Anyways, I have been trying to figure out away to continue having a life, uninterrupted by the uber-depressing "style-ings" of my parents.
So far,
I'm failing.....and I know their problems are not my fault, nor should I feel obligated to fix their problems.....but GoDamnitt.....I'm either going to have to fix them or remove them from my life...and this is hard for the Goddess to comprehend.
I have always loved my family and don't want to spend...However long I live...dealing with their ridiculousness until they die.....its a cycle...I see my parents try to escape the same problems they have with my moms parents and their own personal demons for the past 25 years....
is this what we do?....just put up with our loved ones debilitating faults until it brings you down with them, or...
tell them how it is, reassure your undying love and get on with your life?
I keep shooting for the latter or the two, but I keep getting stuck in the web of impossibilities...
There is a certain way to broach these kinds of subjects....and I don'twant to mess it up (like the last time....angst-y friendship issues + poetry night = DOUCHBAG,DOUCHEBAG, DOUCHEBAG)
...
eh something will happen...
hopefully before the next 25 years occur
....if the worlds around that long