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[missingimmortal]

so .....I am running through all this crap online and I am thinking to myself.....why the fuck do I have so many profiles?......Why the fuck do I have a journal?.....and lots of other interesting things that whiney, faggotee me is always bitching about.....How many of you really fuckin care....and how much time should I spend sitting at the computer trying to make friends...or better yet (being so insecure about myself)that I have to justify my friendships online before I can call and or do something with someone... I have tons of friends on AOL iNSTANT FUCK hOLE and YaHoo's Soul suscker...Why and What for?..Shen me? ....Ladies and gentlemen I have reached my breaking point.......I am tired of talking and typing about how much my life fuckin sucks, how so alone I am, and how everything is screwed up and "I just can't stand it anymore", Emo-infested, I'm-too-fucking-liberal, "Activist," "I'm a little buddhist," Bullshit

I am tired of dictating my life by an image that I will never live up to...

Face it ladies and germs ......I'M FAT....and I am the only person whos gonna change it and it will happen because I want it to, not because I could be so handsome if I would just LOSE SOME WEIGHT...I am a colour blind, fashion senseless, revoked decorating license, HomOsExUAl...I am a cellist with FUCK LOADS of potential and I am tirede of wasting my time waiting for everyone to love me when I just need to love myself...

Take it or Leave it