Though they make no sense, these are the moments, we'll remember for the rest of our restless lives.
The time has come my friend, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax. Of carpenters and kings.
How do I describe my feelings of late? Frustrated. Withdrawn. Jaded. Those are accurate adjectives. I made a bad decision. I thought that I would be ok with quitting. Turns out that was a foolish move. I really want a cigarette. Almost every waking moment is spent wanting a cigarette.
I would probably have an easier run of things if I attempted to quit during a less stressful period of life. Maybe it would be easier if I had a stable place to live, a job, and less personal shit going on. Lara is reluctant to have me continue smoking, and I am pretty enthralled, so that does make a difference, but I'm afraid I may have to delay my disavowal of cancer for now.
God I need a smoke.
How do I describe my feelings of late? Frustrated. Withdrawn. Jaded. Those are accurate adjectives. I made a bad decision. I thought that I would be ok with quitting. Turns out that was a foolish move. I really want a cigarette. Almost every waking moment is spent wanting a cigarette.
I would probably have an easier run of things if I attempted to quit during a less stressful period of life. Maybe it would be easier if I had a stable place to live, a job, and less personal shit going on. Lara is reluctant to have me continue smoking, and I am pretty enthralled, so that does make a difference, but I'm afraid I may have to delay my disavowal of cancer for now.
God I need a smoke.