kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
long fucking day
started out allrite. got my shit settled with spc... turns out i can get into the training to be a detention officer much sooner than i had imagined. this is a good thing. i can get started on a career that isnt at atlanta fucking bread company. i'll be able to raise a family on that. i wont live lavishly, but i dont need to. plus with the improved wages of that i can pay for the wedding that we want.
went to the globe for a bit and got to see a few shining faces that i missed. plus everything seemed to be going pretty good for almost everyone else.
then i went home, wanted to crash, started a movie to sleep to, but then i got a call from my mother in hysterics. she is sick and may have cracked a rib from coughing so hard. with her back as bad as it already is i got worried. i came over, so here i am, dealing with all of these crazy people... i love them, but they are all nuttier than squirrel turds.
i got two of the kids settled and got the baby going on her homework. i made my mom a drink to settle her nerves and chatted with my dad for a bit to figure out what needs to be done. up until then i was freaking on, had a bit of an anxiety attack out on the porch away from everyone.
talking to my angel helped me tremendously. i felt bad for worrying her, but our rapport calmed my nerves alot, and then the xanax i took afterwards helped close the deal.
so now i think i will be calling into work in the morning to let ian know that i have a family emergency and that i cant come in. he has everyone else and their mom scheduled, plus im not supposed to go to work till 9, and he'll be ok since im not opening.
after i get everything squared out here im going to go home with lara and fall asleep in her arms. knowing that i have that on the way brings a wave of euphoria over me that drugs could never equal.
IM IN LOVE!
started out allrite. got my shit settled with spc... turns out i can get into the training to be a detention officer much sooner than i had imagined. this is a good thing. i can get started on a career that isnt at atlanta fucking bread company. i'll be able to raise a family on that. i wont live lavishly, but i dont need to. plus with the improved wages of that i can pay for the wedding that we want.
went to the globe for a bit and got to see a few shining faces that i missed. plus everything seemed to be going pretty good for almost everyone else.
then i went home, wanted to crash, started a movie to sleep to, but then i got a call from my mother in hysterics. she is sick and may have cracked a rib from coughing so hard. with her back as bad as it already is i got worried. i came over, so here i am, dealing with all of these crazy people... i love them, but they are all nuttier than squirrel turds.
i got two of the kids settled and got the baby going on her homework. i made my mom a drink to settle her nerves and chatted with my dad for a bit to figure out what needs to be done. up until then i was freaking on, had a bit of an anxiety attack out on the porch away from everyone.
talking to my angel helped me tremendously. i felt bad for worrying her, but our rapport calmed my nerves alot, and then the xanax i took afterwards helped close the deal.
so now i think i will be calling into work in the morning to let ian know that i have a family emergency and that i cant come in. he has everyone else and their mom scheduled, plus im not supposed to go to work till 9, and he'll be ok since im not opening.
after i get everything squared out here im going to go home with lara and fall asleep in her arms. knowing that i have that on the way brings a wave of euphoria over me that drugs could never equal.
IM IN LOVE!