Boondoggle

Oct 27, 2008 12:25

 Hate me.  I want you to. I need you to. It's the only way I can't get the taste of you out of my mouth.

I'm a grown man now and I am okay with losing you. I mean I've been letting go of your hand for years now.

I am not as horrible as I make myself out to be. And I'm half as horrible as you make me out to be. Just for everyone's sake. Leave me alone I'll do the same. I want autonomy.  I'll be my own president. And cabinet.

It's not because I feel better or superior. I just feel trapped and stifled. I feel like a soda being shaken and shaken, but all the pressure is plugged by my cap that I'm trying soo hard to take off, but this unseen force is pressing it ever so tighter. I've needed a release  and some time to myself. I hate to disappoint, but I'll never fly with someone attached to my hip.

Half of the problem is me and how I have to do for others, before myself. That's my character flaw. Dames is distress. I have to save 'em. Even if they don't want to be saved. I got it from my father and I see where that's gotten him.

Do you ever wish you were someone or something else?
If I had my way, I'd be a Common Rorqual. Weightless and free in my habitat with no one around for miles. And I do aerials  all day.

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