Mar 14, 2007 01:15
i can be so mean sometimes. but it's either mean or hypocritical. and i choose the former, thank you very much (at least when the situation allows me to choose - which is most of the time).
that said, i think the best way to go is just to tell the truth, although sometimes truth hurts and the wound might affect people extensively that it just doesn't go away that quickly. so then i choose avoidance. why? because most of the time i what i think or feel come across very clearly and bluntly. and it hurts people, too.
sometimes i thank God for people who are so thick-skinned that they just cannot read me like normal people do, but then again sometimes i get so frustrated because, really, how can someone be so dense?!
so, once again, i resort to avoidance. avoidance keep me sane in the sense that what i don't have to deal with, i don't have to worry about.
i feel sorry and i feel kinda bad for being mean (directly or indirectly - because avoiding someone is kinda mean in a way),.. but dangg i just don't know what to do sometimes!
random,
musings