I miss him
I posted this about 2 or 3 years ago
"what a predicament!
Welll today you all know I came home from school. The wooler called me before he went to bed this morning to tell me to have a good day at school * aww* this made me so happy. But anyways. I leave a voice mail and he calls me when he wakes up. Wooler NEVER talks on the phone for longer than like 5 minutes. We talked today on the phone for like almost an hour. He told me what he thought of some people. LOL the two boys I like don't like each other... Hmm well I Had this REALLY weird dream about Scott that made me further realize he isn't the one for me. Sad but hey life goes on. there's things about him that make my heart melt and then I'll turn right around and wish he would be different. Wooler informed me today that we are getting married when He's 25 that will make me 19. He said I could have a pretty wedding dress.. He iNFORMED me.. haha. I do want a wedding.. lol but wooler for the REST of my life?? hm we'll have to see about that oh and Scott has called me twice today... hmm"
Granted I'm happily married to Danny. Wooler passed away a coupleof weeks ago and I just happened to read over my journal and read this and I remembered that summer and I remembered all the memories and I'm crying because.. he's gone.. not because i'm not married tohim but because he's gone. I know he shouldn't have been doing what he was doing.. but I miss him. and I keep having these dreams that he's sitting beside me and i keep telling him how sorry i am that i didn't go to his funeral. I went to the wake for 5 mins. He always said he didn't want people to do that at his funeral.. and then i have dreams where i see his dads truck pass me and I try to stop them and i can't.. and then i see him in the coffin. and then i'm crying because i don'thave the close relationships to anyone like i used to that summer and it hurts even more. I miss everyone I don't even know if ashie knows he passed. but it just breaks my heart because i can remember that conversation word for word. I miss him terribly. I'm so upset he had a baby and everything.
"what a predicament!
Welll today you all know I came home from school. The wooler called me before he went to bed this morning to tell me to have a good day at school * aww* this made me so happy. But anyways. I leave a voice mail and he calls me when he wakes up. Wooler NEVER talks on the phone for longer than like 5 minutes. We talked today on the phone for like almost an hour. He told me what he thought of some people. LOL the two boys I like don't like each other... Hmm well I Had this REALLY weird dream about Scott that made me further realize he isn't the one for me. Sad but hey life goes on. there's things about him that make my heart melt and then I'll turn right around and wish he would be different. Wooler informed me today that we are getting married when He's 25 that will make me 19. He said I could have a pretty wedding dress.. He iNFORMED me.. haha. I do want a wedding.. lol but wooler for the REST of my life?? hm we'll have to see about that oh and Scott has called me twice today... hmm"
Granted I'm happily married to Danny. Wooler passed away a coupleof weeks ago and I just happened to read over my journal and read this and I remembered that summer and I remembered all the memories and I'm crying because.. he's gone.. not because i'm not married tohim but because he's gone. I know he shouldn't have been doing what he was doing.. but I miss him. and I keep having these dreams that he's sitting beside me and i keep telling him how sorry i am that i didn't go to his funeral. I went to the wake for 5 mins. He always said he didn't want people to do that at his funeral.. and then i have dreams where i see his dads truck pass me and I try to stop them and i can't.. and then i see him in the coffin. and then i'm crying because i don'thave the close relationships to anyone like i used to that summer and it hurts even more. I miss everyone I don't even know if ashie knows he passed. but it just breaks my heart because i can remember that conversation word for word. I miss him terribly. I'm so upset he had a baby and everything.