...now please don't break it

[missgoodis]

i do hope you'll take a moment to welcome me back from the proverbial LJ graveyard long enough to allow me to catch my breath before i post

why do i need to catch my breath?
just trust me.

i've been running for so long
hours, days, weeks, months, certainly more than a year...
always timing myself
counting the steps i took
clocking my mileage and silently loathing myself for never stopping

i've slowed down a few times, taken a look around
had a few cups of coffee and a truckful of cigarettes
but always found my second wind and kept on running
my legs are tired
they're burning and sizzling under my flesh
but i might finally be winded
something has been knocking that marathon mindset out of me

it's a whole new set of terror
but it's the kind that makes me want to stop running
take a stopover on the open road
even though i know it stretches in every direction around me
i want to take a breather

i don't know if i should
but i'm sick of running this marathon

i think
it's time
i sat
and smelled
the roses