Confused...
I just don't get it. I know boys want time alone with their friend(s) and no girls. Fine with me. I like to hang with my friends too. But this time I brought up a valid point...
Last night I asked if we could hang out.
His reason for saying no was that he had to work on my dad's website, he's been waiting to do it for so long and finally can start it.
Ok, then, I'll deal.......until...
The boy's friend wants to hang out...so that's ok? Website's not really that important? What about me? Why do you need an excuse to dodge me? You know all you need to say is "guy time" or something. Instead I am made to feel like my feelings are wrong and "no offense, but I don't want to hang out with you tonight." Ouch. Think I'll just curl up and fucking die.
You do so much for me, and I can never thank you enough...but
-it hurts when you make excuses to not see me
-makes it worse when you can break or change that excuse to see someone else
-hurts more when I'm made to feel that what I'm feeling is wrong
-maybe it's the fact that you do so much for me, and I can't do as much in return because I'm mega-poor, so I try to make it up to you with sweetness and little things.
Why do I feel like I'm second string?
I always include others...yet I'm not to be included.
I just don't get it.
It hurts.
Last night I asked if we could hang out.
His reason for saying no was that he had to work on my dad's website, he's been waiting to do it for so long and finally can start it.
Ok, then, I'll deal.......until...
The boy's friend wants to hang out...so that's ok? Website's not really that important? What about me? Why do you need an excuse to dodge me? You know all you need to say is "guy time" or something. Instead I am made to feel like my feelings are wrong and "no offense, but I don't want to hang out with you tonight." Ouch. Think I'll just curl up and fucking die.
You do so much for me, and I can never thank you enough...but
-it hurts when you make excuses to not see me
-makes it worse when you can break or change that excuse to see someone else
-hurts more when I'm made to feel that what I'm feeling is wrong
-maybe it's the fact that you do so much for me, and I can't do as much in return because I'm mega-poor, so I try to make it up to you with sweetness and little things.
Why do I feel like I'm second string?
I always include others...yet I'm not to be included.
I just don't get it.
It hurts.