Devotion
HELL.... I'm back from the best trip I've ever done... I went to NYC with my brother for 3 weeks and those were the best three weeks of my life... I could think a lot about all the shit I've been through and stuff... and I've thought about everything concerning the person who stole my being.. and made me live again... but I think I thought too much about it... and I don't think I'm ready to forget everything.... I simply can't. We started a story that hasn't even developed compleately, and I'll have to wait for it... but I can't wait that long... if he makes the wrong decision... I won't be able to give my all... it wouldn't be... moral.
Anyway.... I began my senior year this week. I thought I wouldn't have problems because I came one week later... but well.. I did have some homework to do for sunday (I came back a saturday) and I just... almost fainted xD. I have to take language lessons for who knows what... but the thing is that I was obliged to learn quichua (indigenous language here in ecuador) and... SHIT xD it's damn hard... i mean, the first day i had that class the teacher just spoke in quichua and i just... stared at him and the only thing i could say was 'mana' (no).. yes.. mana.. like Mana from Moi Dix Mois xDU.... and well...
I thought the drama would be over, but it will never be. Drama is a part of my life, even though I just despise it. I had enough drama in my life for so long, and now that I want to let it be ALONE, I can't. I wonder if there are any other types of communication... because talking isn't working at all... written messages and emails didn't work at all as well.. and well... i think i'll have to dance and play with fire and drawings so she understands the meaning of maturity, which she has.. 'lost'?
Devotion, I will always be devoted... devoted to that body without a soul :3
Anyway.... I began my senior year this week. I thought I wouldn't have problems because I came one week later... but well.. I did have some homework to do for sunday (I came back a saturday) and I just... almost fainted xD. I have to take language lessons for who knows what... but the thing is that I was obliged to learn quichua (indigenous language here in ecuador) and... SHIT xD it's damn hard... i mean, the first day i had that class the teacher just spoke in quichua and i just... stared at him and the only thing i could say was 'mana' (no).. yes.. mana.. like Mana from Moi Dix Mois xDU.... and well...
I thought the drama would be over, but it will never be. Drama is a part of my life, even though I just despise it. I had enough drama in my life for so long, and now that I want to let it be ALONE, I can't. I wonder if there are any other types of communication... because talking isn't working at all... written messages and emails didn't work at all as well.. and well... i think i'll have to dance and play with fire and drawings so she understands the meaning of maturity, which she has.. 'lost'?
Devotion, I will always be devoted... devoted to that body without a soul :3