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I still love him.
I miss him like crazy.
He's the only thing that's keeping me
from staying in this paradise.
I still love him after all this time.
How long has it been now?
Ugh.
The deal?
Yeah don't believe me because I still
have crushes on other people. So what?
Kaiman's utterly adorable.. how am I
supposed to stop myself?
The feelings I feel for Kaiman/anyone else
ever are nothing compared to what I-
still-feel for him.
I lie, I'll admit.
I'm a liar.
To everyone, but to myself, mostly. Not
really a bold liar, but I think I wear
my heart on my sleeve.. however that works..
I'm not exactly sure what it means.
Well I throw around those three little
words far too half-heartedly, I think.
I don't love Christopher, but I did lie
and tell him I did.
Maybe I care about him a little bit still,
but surely I don't love him.
No.
I'm a little bit naive, still, I guess,
always I'll be a little bit immature.
"Do you think this will go on forever?"
"I don't know. Not forever, maybe, but
for a decently long time."
It's gone on for a long time, believe
me.
'Love is blind'
I know it, Sharon, don't remind me(I read
it on your xanga ha).
What happens when you lose everything?
You just start again. You start all over again.
I want to start all over again.
'We get high in back seats of cars,
we break into mobile homes. We go to sleep to
shake appeal. We go out in stormy weather,
We rarely practice discern, We make love to
some weird sin, we seek out the taciturn.
We found a new kind of dance in a magazine,
Tried it out it's like nothing you ever seen.
You sweet talk like a cop and you know it
You bought a new bag of pot, said let's make
a new start and that's the way to my heart.
We get high in back seats of cars,
We put faith in our concerns.
Fall in love to down on the street
We believe in the sum of ourselves.
..and that's the way we get by.'
I miss him like crazy.
He's the only thing that's keeping me
from staying in this paradise.
I still love him after all this time.
How long has it been now?
Ugh.
The deal?
Yeah don't believe me because I still
have crushes on other people. So what?
Kaiman's utterly adorable.. how am I
supposed to stop myself?
The feelings I feel for Kaiman/anyone else
ever are nothing compared to what I-
still-feel for him.
I lie, I'll admit.
I'm a liar.
To everyone, but to myself, mostly. Not
really a bold liar, but I think I wear
my heart on my sleeve.. however that works..
I'm not exactly sure what it means.
Well I throw around those three little
words far too half-heartedly, I think.
I don't love Christopher, but I did lie
and tell him I did.
Maybe I care about him a little bit still,
but surely I don't love him.
No.
I'm a little bit naive, still, I guess,
always I'll be a little bit immature.
"Do you think this will go on forever?"
"I don't know. Not forever, maybe, but
for a decently long time."
It's gone on for a long time, believe
me.
'Love is blind'
I know it, Sharon, don't remind me(I read
it on your xanga ha).
What happens when you lose everything?
You just start again. You start all over again.
I want to start all over again.
'We get high in back seats of cars,
we break into mobile homes. We go to sleep to
shake appeal. We go out in stormy weather,
We rarely practice discern, We make love to
some weird sin, we seek out the taciturn.
We found a new kind of dance in a magazine,
Tried it out it's like nothing you ever seen.
You sweet talk like a cop and you know it
You bought a new bag of pot, said let's make
a new start and that's the way to my heart.
We get high in back seats of cars,
We put faith in our concerns.
Fall in love to down on the street
We believe in the sum of ourselves.
..and that's the way we get by.'