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why is this happening? what did i do? sometimes i wonder how i can feel so unhappy. my life feels like it is just fallng apart. Family, Friends, Boyfriend, i feel like ive lost it all so quickly. I wish i could go back and fix everything i ever did wrong, just so i wouldnt be so alone. I miss everyone, especially him. I know its time to move on, but how can you move on from a feeling like this? from love? can you? i feel like i possibly cant. i find myself so wrapped up in him and all his perfections, and i cant get out. i mean, i love him. its so hard to pretend im ok and pretend i dont care, pretend im moving on, pretend everything. I want to give him what he wants, which isnt me. Its just hard when he gave me the best times of my life. Leaving him, means leaving the real me. he brings that out. but he wants to let me go, i can except that. im just left heartbroken, i guess i deserve it though. I took advantage of our relationship, didnt realize how much i needed it, i hurt him and now, its done. i guess i have to face it. losing a bestfriend and boyfriend in one- thats what he was.
I wish i could change, for you, for him, for me. I want to be somebody else.
" if heaven had a height you would be that tall" i remember.... i remember...
I wish i could change, for you, for him, for me. I want to be somebody else.
" if heaven had a height you would be that tall" i remember.... i remember...