All I ever wanted, all I ever needed...
Is there, in Florida.
I adore Megan and I'm so happy that I met her out here. And I like LA. I do. I like all the people I have met and I want to continue to work on those friendships and hang out with everyone more. And there is so much to do and so much potential. And I'm sorry for getting all sappy always...
But what the hell am I doing here? How did I do this? I brought Katie to the airport tonight and when I got back in the car and Snow Patrol's new song came on, I started crying.
And I'm talking to Keiko now and I listened to the song on my profile and when I heard the "all I ever wanted, all I ever needed" I started crying again and wished I could BE WITH Keiko and be talking with her IN PERSON.
And I NEVER have anyone to freaking go dancing with and it pisses me off. I want Jessica, Lisa, and Kim HERE because they could and would ALWAYS go.
My sister is too off and on and busy to be what I need fully. I think we are working on it but I'm not sure. I want my friends, I miss my friends.
Everyone tells me how I'm their hero and I'm so brave. Yea I moved across the country away from EVERYONE. But people have done this before. I'm not the first or the last. And yes I'm strong, and I'm making it work and it's probably a great experience for me... but I would give anything to go home and see everyone. Just hug and cry and dance.
I wish I had a million dollars. I would bring them all here and go there to visit. I hate thinking I won't be home until Christmas. I was supposed to come visit earlier but I've been going through so much money and not making it back as fast as I thought I would.
Katie and I were on our blow up beds last night and started throwing the remote control at each other. It seems dumb but that made me so happy.
I miss the ones I love a lot. I guess that's normal. But normal doesn't make it suck any less.
I'm going to bed. No one thinking and no more music. It's making me a wreck.
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