I am very broke. And at lost for a good subject title.
The weekend is much too far away. I feel at this rate the week is going to finish me off before I can even enjoy the bliss of freedom.
"Religion without testing or questioning is not faith, just submission". That’s what I meant to say in CWR today during our class long and pretty pointless discussion. It’s such a good class right now. I hope it stays that way. I have dropped down to normal math 12!! *does happy dance*. I was so very pleased, everything is so easy(!) and yes, I just knocked on wood. The only reason I didn’t know what was going on today was because I was very tired and not paying attention, something I was very good at today.
There is good and bad about this semester. The course load seems to be easier (fingers crossed) and the teachers seems chill, but I miss a lot of people. No more math with Val and Caroline, no more having Jackie and Seamus in all my classes. No more Maggie, Marlee or Nelle. It's very depressing. The grade 12's are cool enough, but they're all kind of blank. Not much spark. Deffinitly not my old classes full of frenchies. Oh well, Bart and Paddy make up for most of that. And Emma Leslie of course, but that's a given.
Very long and irritable musical rehearsal last night. I don’t know if you’d really call them rehearsals, more like classes on the musical. We’re just slashing through notes on tiny scores. Oh yeah, Ms. Farell photocopied the sheets of music so there was four to a page, about 25% of the orginal size. You know size 8 font printed out? That’s how small the words are. For every song. As if I wasn’t fucking blind enough.
I want to ride so badly right now. It’s never bothered me since I’ve stopped but I really want to again, even just for a moment. It’s just impossible to find a decent barn. Or afford it. Or go in the winter….I don’t miss having no feeling in my feet and hands until April. Too bad Alex hates me so much or I’d beg her to let me ride Romi for a while. Oh hell, I’d probably beg anyway.
I really want to go to the Sir John A prom next year. I’m not saying with Graham, or anyone for that matter, just in general. I would love to go and just be there with you guys….my worry is that we won’t be friends that long. I have the horrible, irritating habit of going through friends, I’ve done it my entire life. I get tired of them or they get tired of me, I find a new herd. I would really like not to do that with the people from John A. Even though I am fully aware they mean more to me then I do them, I still like our “friendship”. So I really want to go. Plus I’m a little prom-happy right now for some reason. It shall be much fun running around after Meghan with my never-ceasing digital camera when June rolls around.
Today we learned about the plasma membrane. I think it’s like a Bouncer. Let’s things in, chucks things, out, what better metaphor could there be?
Plans for this weekend seem to be getting difficult. Maybe I can put off Nicki’s until next weekend. I’d rather not be hungover for Saturday.
Yesterday was a nice mace day. Someone thought it would be fun to spray it in the hallways in the second floor and the admin. Thought it would be even more fun to make us stay the rest of the day. Weird stuff that shit is, can’t really smell it (at least I couldn’t) but you can taste in the air, it’s heavy and burns a little. Not very pleasant, but what else can you expect from St. Pat’s.
While emptying a duotang for math I came across the first thing I did for English last semester. “Best summer memory” or something like that. I thought it was funny because I wrote about Canada day. Was it really that long ago? It’s going to be tough to top that one this year, I hope we do.
My new math teacher looks vaguely like Sarah. Just saying.
I wish I could just be happy. Life’s not that bad right now, in fact it’s pretty good by my usual standards. So what’ with being so grey? I don’t like it, not one bit. I think I’ll go to sleep soon. I miss my free so much :(
Peaceness to the Flame
TEN random things about me:
1.) I can only leave my bed in the morning when the last number on my clock is either 5 or 0
2.) If I can help it, you will never see without foundation on, although I tend to wear little other makeup
3.) I hate dresses but love prom
4.) I wish I were good enough to get a lead role in next year’s musical
5.) I swear I’m a little bit bipolar (Nicki agrees)
6.) I feel very self-conscious dressing anything that shows, well, anything. Mostly at school.
7.) I hate being cold with a passion
8.) If you give me a permanent marker I will write or doodle on just about anything. I will do the same on my skin if you give me a pen.
9.) I lie so much and automatically that sometime's I'm not sure what the truth is
10.) I was convinced as a child and pre-teen (such a dumb word) that I would die before the age of 25 and accepted it without fear
NINE things that make me smile or laugh (or both!):
1.) People falling down in a hilarious fashion
2.) The Simpsons
3.) Drunk people, especially drunk Nicki
4.) A great stream of songs on otherwise very crappy radio
5.) A good dream
6.) Robin Williams
7.) Pink Gerber daises
8.) The Sawyer song
9.) Just about anything makes me laugh if you catch me in the right mood
EIGHT things I don’t understand:
1.) Why pretty, great girls that I would so date if I were a guy don’t have boyfriends
2.) Why George Bush was re-elected
3.) Almost everything I was supposed to learn in Math 11A
4.) Call waiting (although it worked today! Yes!)
5.) Why people don’t sleep. I can understand not being able to sleep, but intentionally not? Don’t get it.
6.) The school board
7.) Why we must leave school when there is no water, but can stay with the lingering taste of mace
8.) Excessive amounts of homework. When you have a job you don’t have homeowork. How the hell is it preparing us for real life?
SEVEN ways to annoy me or seven things that annoy me:
1.) Food
2.) Intentionally cracking joints and bones
3.) Telling the same story again. And again. Worst after you’ve been told you’ve already said it. Just. Shut. UP!
4.) C100
5.) People who feel it’s necessary to force their beliefs on me or can’t accept that fact that I don’t believe or am undecided about the existence God. Get over it.
6.) Bad style on people who I like otherwise. Look in a freaking mirror!
7.) Being cold
SIX things (or people) I believe in:
1.) There’s a better place somewhere
2.) “Life isn't about being happy, it's about having goals to be happy”-Jackie. Depressing but true.
3.) Sleep comes before all
4.) Math is the root of all evil
5.) Summer is too far away
6.) Valentines Day is a very stupid holiday, but I’m going to celebrate it anyway just because I can
FIVE things I’m afraid of:
1.) People that I like dying
2.) God being real (if he is I’m so screwed….)
3.) Ms. Farrel (and Linda for that matter, but I will hopefully never have to deal with her again)
4.) Heights
5.) Failure
FOUR of my favorite items in my room:
1.) My cow print chair, even though I never use it
2.) My squiggly desk that my dad made for me, even though I never use it
3.) The caution tape on my door
4.) My lights around my mirror
THREE things I do everyday:
1.) Sleep
2.) Wander away from reality
3.) Get thrown back into reality
TWO things I want to do right now:
1.) See Graham (like, duh)
2.) Sleep and be done all my homework (ha!)
ONE person I want to see right now:
1.) Do you even have to ask?
"Religion without testing or questioning is not faith, just submission". That’s what I meant to say in CWR today during our class long and pretty pointless discussion. It’s such a good class right now. I hope it stays that way. I have dropped down to normal math 12!! *does happy dance*. I was so very pleased, everything is so easy(!) and yes, I just knocked on wood. The only reason I didn’t know what was going on today was because I was very tired and not paying attention, something I was very good at today.
There is good and bad about this semester. The course load seems to be easier (fingers crossed) and the teachers seems chill, but I miss a lot of people. No more math with Val and Caroline, no more having Jackie and Seamus in all my classes. No more Maggie, Marlee or Nelle. It's very depressing. The grade 12's are cool enough, but they're all kind of blank. Not much spark. Deffinitly not my old classes full of frenchies. Oh well, Bart and Paddy make up for most of that. And Emma Leslie of course, but that's a given.
Very long and irritable musical rehearsal last night. I don’t know if you’d really call them rehearsals, more like classes on the musical. We’re just slashing through notes on tiny scores. Oh yeah, Ms. Farell photocopied the sheets of music so there was four to a page, about 25% of the orginal size. You know size 8 font printed out? That’s how small the words are. For every song. As if I wasn’t fucking blind enough.
I want to ride so badly right now. It’s never bothered me since I’ve stopped but I really want to again, even just for a moment. It’s just impossible to find a decent barn. Or afford it. Or go in the winter….I don’t miss having no feeling in my feet and hands until April. Too bad Alex hates me so much or I’d beg her to let me ride Romi for a while. Oh hell, I’d probably beg anyway.
I really want to go to the Sir John A prom next year. I’m not saying with Graham, or anyone for that matter, just in general. I would love to go and just be there with you guys….my worry is that we won’t be friends that long. I have the horrible, irritating habit of going through friends, I’ve done it my entire life. I get tired of them or they get tired of me, I find a new herd. I would really like not to do that with the people from John A. Even though I am fully aware they mean more to me then I do them, I still like our “friendship”. So I really want to go. Plus I’m a little prom-happy right now for some reason. It shall be much fun running around after Meghan with my never-ceasing digital camera when June rolls around.
Today we learned about the plasma membrane. I think it’s like a Bouncer. Let’s things in, chucks things, out, what better metaphor could there be?
Plans for this weekend seem to be getting difficult. Maybe I can put off Nicki’s until next weekend. I’d rather not be hungover for Saturday.
Yesterday was a nice mace day. Someone thought it would be fun to spray it in the hallways in the second floor and the admin. Thought it would be even more fun to make us stay the rest of the day. Weird stuff that shit is, can’t really smell it (at least I couldn’t) but you can taste in the air, it’s heavy and burns a little. Not very pleasant, but what else can you expect from St. Pat’s.
While emptying a duotang for math I came across the first thing I did for English last semester. “Best summer memory” or something like that. I thought it was funny because I wrote about Canada day. Was it really that long ago? It’s going to be tough to top that one this year, I hope we do.
My new math teacher looks vaguely like Sarah. Just saying.
I wish I could just be happy. Life’s not that bad right now, in fact it’s pretty good by my usual standards. So what’ with being so grey? I don’t like it, not one bit. I think I’ll go to sleep soon. I miss my free so much :(
Peaceness to the Flame
TEN random things about me:
1.) I can only leave my bed in the morning when the last number on my clock is either 5 or 0
2.) If I can help it, you will never see without foundation on, although I tend to wear little other makeup
3.) I hate dresses but love prom
4.) I wish I were good enough to get a lead role in next year’s musical
5.) I swear I’m a little bit bipolar (Nicki agrees)
6.) I feel very self-conscious dressing anything that shows, well, anything. Mostly at school.
7.) I hate being cold with a passion
8.) If you give me a permanent marker I will write or doodle on just about anything. I will do the same on my skin if you give me a pen.
9.) I lie so much and automatically that sometime's I'm not sure what the truth is
10.) I was convinced as a child and pre-teen (such a dumb word) that I would die before the age of 25 and accepted it without fear
NINE things that make me smile or laugh (or both!):
1.) People falling down in a hilarious fashion
2.) The Simpsons
3.) Drunk people, especially drunk Nicki
4.) A great stream of songs on otherwise very crappy radio
5.) A good dream
6.) Robin Williams
7.) Pink Gerber daises
8.) The Sawyer song
9.) Just about anything makes me laugh if you catch me in the right mood
EIGHT things I don’t understand:
1.) Why pretty, great girls that I would so date if I were a guy don’t have boyfriends
2.) Why George Bush was re-elected
3.) Almost everything I was supposed to learn in Math 11A
4.) Call waiting (although it worked today! Yes!)
5.) Why people don’t sleep. I can understand not being able to sleep, but intentionally not? Don’t get it.
6.) The school board
7.) Why we must leave school when there is no water, but can stay with the lingering taste of mace
8.) Excessive amounts of homework. When you have a job you don’t have homeowork. How the hell is it preparing us for real life?
SEVEN ways to annoy me or seven things that annoy me:
1.) Food
2.) Intentionally cracking joints and bones
3.) Telling the same story again. And again. Worst after you’ve been told you’ve already said it. Just. Shut. UP!
4.) C100
5.) People who feel it’s necessary to force their beliefs on me or can’t accept that fact that I don’t believe or am undecided about the existence God. Get over it.
6.) Bad style on people who I like otherwise. Look in a freaking mirror!
7.) Being cold
SIX things (or people) I believe in:
1.) There’s a better place somewhere
2.) “Life isn't about being happy, it's about having goals to be happy”-Jackie. Depressing but true.
3.) Sleep comes before all
4.) Math is the root of all evil
5.) Summer is too far away
6.) Valentines Day is a very stupid holiday, but I’m going to celebrate it anyway just because I can
FIVE things I’m afraid of:
1.) People that I like dying
2.) God being real (if he is I’m so screwed….)
3.) Ms. Farrel (and Linda for that matter, but I will hopefully never have to deal with her again)
4.) Heights
5.) Failure
FOUR of my favorite items in my room:
1.) My cow print chair, even though I never use it
2.) My squiggly desk that my dad made for me, even though I never use it
3.) The caution tape on my door
4.) My lights around my mirror
THREE things I do everyday:
1.) Sleep
2.) Wander away from reality
3.) Get thrown back into reality
TWO things I want to do right now:
1.) See Graham (like, duh)
2.) Sleep and be done all my homework (ha!)
ONE person I want to see right now:
1.) Do you even have to ask?