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some days, they last longer than others...
everything here has memories that I have dusted off and held up to the light. none of them are any prettier now than they were then.
the friendship factor here has dwindled. L.A. hasn't, but here has, interesting how that works out.
i've seen a horrendous car crash, two dead bodies of people i've cared about, 40 year old gay men in a conga line at 11:30 at night in the Tenderloin dressed like the village people, wheelchairs driving with cars on the street, my parents getting older.
i had gut-wrenching nightmares last night about men that are important to me but fuck calling and telling them how much they mean to me. there are only two anymore that affect me at all, and i've known this whole time that there is nothing i can say or do. ever.
i love san francisco. i love california, but i don't live here anymore.
so if you want me, you better speak up i won't wait...
so you better move fast.
i can't wait, i can't i can't i can't. we all been known i got no patience.
everything here has memories that I have dusted off and held up to the light. none of them are any prettier now than they were then.
the friendship factor here has dwindled. L.A. hasn't, but here has, interesting how that works out.
i've seen a horrendous car crash, two dead bodies of people i've cared about, 40 year old gay men in a conga line at 11:30 at night in the Tenderloin dressed like the village people, wheelchairs driving with cars on the street, my parents getting older.
i had gut-wrenching nightmares last night about men that are important to me but fuck calling and telling them how much they mean to me. there are only two anymore that affect me at all, and i've known this whole time that there is nothing i can say or do. ever.
i love san francisco. i love california, but i don't live here anymore.
so if you want me, you better speak up i won't wait...
so you better move fast.
i can't wait, i can't i can't i can't. we all been known i got no patience.