Feeling kind of great
So... hello LJ. It's been a while.
To make a long story short, my "friends" kicked me out of their house in mid-October and I have been staying with James ever since. Almost two months now and we have yet to argue, be uncomfortable or be anything other than harmonious. It's amazing.
We still have no labels. We're still "just friends". But he holds me every night. We snuggle when we're watching TV together -- without fail. We hold hands when we are walking together. We hug and kiss each other good bye every day when we leave for work. And greet each other with a hug and kiss every day when we come home. He calls me "baby".
I am so, so very much in love with him.
We haven't exchanged those words yet though. Which is funny because when we first started hanging out, he would tell me he loved me all the time... But it was different then. We really were just friends then. But now that we have this amazing label-less thing that we have, he can't say it. Which tells me he feels it but is too afraid to say it. Because I sure as hell feel it. And I sure as hell can't say it. We do, on the other hand, have a little phrase we say in place of those three little words. And it means the same thing. So we say it almost daily without actually saying it.
Three Cheese Pizza. ♥♥♥
He's told me before that he thinks I am one of the greatest women he's ever met. Then he said at a later date that I am one of the greatest women he's ever met. Then just the other day, he looked me straight in my eyes and said with certainty, "You are the greatest woman I have ever met." I like how that progressed ^^
He's definitely the greatest man I've ever met. He's had a shitty past that he tries to use against himself to prove he isn't great, but I shoot it down every time. Because the man he was in the past is not the man he is now. It made him who he is now, but it's no longer him.
He treats all women with respect. Chivalry is not dead with this man. He's the first man I've had any kind of relationship with that I can actually call a man. He deserves that title. He's earned it.
I said for years that I would never ever get married again. But you know what? I could marry him. He's the first man I've fallen in love with for the right reasons. Any other time was purely physical. They had qualities that were aesthetically pleasing to my eyes and that's what made me like them. I put up with their shitty personalities or stupid habits/hobbies because I liked their appearance. But with James... he's just the whole package deal. Amazing personality. Contagious smile. Warm eyes. Soft touch. Heart of gold.
Having met him has completely changed my opinion of soulmates or fated people. The connection I feel with him is unlike anything I've ever felt with anyone. He's amazing. He's magical.
And I am his. And I will wait patiently for the day he allows himself to be mine.
To make a long story short, my "friends" kicked me out of their house in mid-October and I have been staying with James ever since. Almost two months now and we have yet to argue, be uncomfortable or be anything other than harmonious. It's amazing.
We still have no labels. We're still "just friends". But he holds me every night. We snuggle when we're watching TV together -- without fail. We hold hands when we are walking together. We hug and kiss each other good bye every day when we leave for work. And greet each other with a hug and kiss every day when we come home. He calls me "baby".
I am so, so very much in love with him.
We haven't exchanged those words yet though. Which is funny because when we first started hanging out, he would tell me he loved me all the time... But it was different then. We really were just friends then. But now that we have this amazing label-less thing that we have, he can't say it. Which tells me he feels it but is too afraid to say it. Because I sure as hell feel it. And I sure as hell can't say it. We do, on the other hand, have a little phrase we say in place of those three little words. And it means the same thing. So we say it almost daily without actually saying it.
Three Cheese Pizza. ♥♥♥
He's told me before that he thinks I am one of the greatest women he's ever met. Then he said at a later date that I am one of the greatest women he's ever met. Then just the other day, he looked me straight in my eyes and said with certainty, "You are the greatest woman I have ever met." I like how that progressed ^^
He's definitely the greatest man I've ever met. He's had a shitty past that he tries to use against himself to prove he isn't great, but I shoot it down every time. Because the man he was in the past is not the man he is now. It made him who he is now, but it's no longer him.
He treats all women with respect. Chivalry is not dead with this man. He's the first man I've had any kind of relationship with that I can actually call a man. He deserves that title. He's earned it.
I said for years that I would never ever get married again. But you know what? I could marry him. He's the first man I've fallen in love with for the right reasons. Any other time was purely physical. They had qualities that were aesthetically pleasing to my eyes and that's what made me like them. I put up with their shitty personalities or stupid habits/hobbies because I liked their appearance. But with James... he's just the whole package deal. Amazing personality. Contagious smile. Warm eyes. Soft touch. Heart of gold.
Having met him has completely changed my opinion of soulmates or fated people. The connection I feel with him is unlike anything I've ever felt with anyone. He's amazing. He's magical.
And I am his. And I will wait patiently for the day he allows himself to be mine.