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This might very well be it, but I'm pretty sure this is how it has to be. I feel something incredible slipping away that's just beyond my reaching for. I imagine I'm numb and invincible enough to just go with things the way they are, I just hope I hold up. This is what I want for right now, even if it fucks everything up. I'll do my best to have no regrets and just hope for the best whatever that turns out to be. I'll be okay regardless. Am I writing this just to assure myself?