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first things first, my computer is finally fixed, and even tho it's basically empty of everything, at least i'm able to get back online and do stuff like this on it. i lost everything i didn't back up tho, which means i need to find a new wallpaper.
it was thirteen degrees out, and i must have been the only person in peoria driving around with my heater off and my windows open. felt pretty damn good tho.
next, thanks are owed to three people, well there are more, only i can figure out three of them now, and hopefully more as time wears on. first, thanks to billy for helping remind me that she ain't married or a nun therefore hope isn't completely dead. second, thanks to MMW, whoever it is, for suggesting the only plan so far that my mind hasn't been able to find faults in and tear apart and for reminding me of an important fact. finally, thanks to jenny, who will never read this, therefore it doesn't matter when i say that she's the cause of all of this, and for the fact that i still find it funny that when i was really bothered by this, she kept offering to try and help me with whatever was bothering me. i should thank other, like mr. kyle, but i haven't narrowed down why i'm thanking others yet, so that will have to wait.
so to describe what happened to me today, i will need to use an odd metaphor. You see, for the longest time, i've been looking at the things in my life as balls that i'm juggling, ones which i need to give my constant suppervision and attention otherwise i'll drop them all. lately, it feels as if someone (no one in particular) has been throwing more things in to be juggled, which has caused much stress. now, thanks to someone who i don't know who was kind enough to remind me that there are so many things that one can't control and that if something is going to happen, it will. may not have meant that by the comment, but that's how things panned out. all of that worrying and what not was what was causing those mind screw ups. now, i can finally relax and not worry about all of it.
tonight has been the first night in a long time that i have felt really good and ended up smiling at nothing the whole night. and you know what? it's true what they say that a smile is infectious or whatever, spreading it's tendrils out into anyone who sees it and burrowing into their core.
i'm gonna take it slow with the second person, but any way that all this develops, i'm sure things will end up alright in the end.
it was thirteen degrees out, and i must have been the only person in peoria driving around with my heater off and my windows open. felt pretty damn good tho.
next, thanks are owed to three people, well there are more, only i can figure out three of them now, and hopefully more as time wears on. first, thanks to billy for helping remind me that she ain't married or a nun therefore hope isn't completely dead. second, thanks to MMW, whoever it is, for suggesting the only plan so far that my mind hasn't been able to find faults in and tear apart and for reminding me of an important fact. finally, thanks to jenny, who will never read this, therefore it doesn't matter when i say that she's the cause of all of this, and for the fact that i still find it funny that when i was really bothered by this, she kept offering to try and help me with whatever was bothering me. i should thank other, like mr. kyle, but i haven't narrowed down why i'm thanking others yet, so that will have to wait.
so to describe what happened to me today, i will need to use an odd metaphor. You see, for the longest time, i've been looking at the things in my life as balls that i'm juggling, ones which i need to give my constant suppervision and attention otherwise i'll drop them all. lately, it feels as if someone (no one in particular) has been throwing more things in to be juggled, which has caused much stress. now, thanks to someone who i don't know who was kind enough to remind me that there are so many things that one can't control and that if something is going to happen, it will. may not have meant that by the comment, but that's how things panned out. all of that worrying and what not was what was causing those mind screw ups. now, i can finally relax and not worry about all of it.
tonight has been the first night in a long time that i have felt really good and ended up smiling at nothing the whole night. and you know what? it's true what they say that a smile is infectious or whatever, spreading it's tendrils out into anyone who sees it and burrowing into their core.
i'm gonna take it slow with the second person, but any way that all this develops, i'm sure things will end up alright in the end.