im getting really tired of caring...
i think that is basically time that i just stop making an effort with everything. i mean for one thing with friends. it seems like no matter how hard me and ryan try to be firends (and im pretty sure both of us are trying) somehow things dont seem to work. i mean and most of the time we just get into arguments about stupid stuff and its like with most people wed just ignore it and im getting really fed up with everyone telling us not to fight. its not like im tring to get into fights. ive been thinking about that a lot lately and i think that a lot of it is cuz of jason, not that its his fault. what i mean is that he and ryan are like best friends and have been for who knows how long...and now im jason girlfriend and have been for a while. so like both of us want to hang out with jason for obvious reasons and i think thats a lot of the reason why we fight so much. and it sux for jason cuz how can you pick between your best friend and your girlfriend, thats right, you cant. so i really dont know what to do about this anymore and honestly ive just basically giving up trying to solve it. nothing works anyways.
then theres volleyball. seriously its the worst team ive ever been on. not just skillwise, i mean we have some decent players. but everyone is so stupid. i mean either their so full of themselves or they are really annoying and like all of them think they are the greatest people in the world. i so hate it when people think theyre all that and they really arent. plus the coach is a devil. seriously. but then i dont expect her to be able to control us or anythign since she cant even control her own kids. i seriously want to shoot all of them. im just so glad that we have 3 more games, 2 more weeks and then im done FOREVER!!!! that is soooo exciting
lets see...what else is bugging me at the moment...
well school is really getting to me. i barely have a B in my math class right now cuz its crazy hard and my parents will totally flip about that. especially cuz its math and ive always been so good at it and they are like nazis when it comes to grades. i swear even when i study like forever i still cant get an a on a test. i swear i feel lucky just getting a b now and thats sooo not like me.
its also kinda bothering me that im only gonna get to see jason for like an hour on thursday even though its our 7 month aniversary. hes going to knotts scary farm with ryan which would be really fun and i dont blame him. once again it comes back to the bestfriend versus girlfriend issue. plus im always so busy and he always works around my schedule so i guess that its just as much my fault. im just said that i wont get to hang out with him that night i guess. ive always been such a romantic and all that good stuff but i guess with the way my life has been going i gotta settle for reality.
well thats all i got to say right now. i seriously cant wait till the holidays cuz i really need some cheering up. later days...
then theres volleyball. seriously its the worst team ive ever been on. not just skillwise, i mean we have some decent players. but everyone is so stupid. i mean either their so full of themselves or they are really annoying and like all of them think they are the greatest people in the world. i so hate it when people think theyre all that and they really arent. plus the coach is a devil. seriously. but then i dont expect her to be able to control us or anythign since she cant even control her own kids. i seriously want to shoot all of them. im just so glad that we have 3 more games, 2 more weeks and then im done FOREVER!!!! that is soooo exciting
lets see...what else is bugging me at the moment...
well school is really getting to me. i barely have a B in my math class right now cuz its crazy hard and my parents will totally flip about that. especially cuz its math and ive always been so good at it and they are like nazis when it comes to grades. i swear even when i study like forever i still cant get an a on a test. i swear i feel lucky just getting a b now and thats sooo not like me.
its also kinda bothering me that im only gonna get to see jason for like an hour on thursday even though its our 7 month aniversary. hes going to knotts scary farm with ryan which would be really fun and i dont blame him. once again it comes back to the bestfriend versus girlfriend issue. plus im always so busy and he always works around my schedule so i guess that its just as much my fault. im just said that i wont get to hang out with him that night i guess. ive always been such a romantic and all that good stuff but i guess with the way my life has been going i gotta settle for reality.
well thats all i got to say right now. i seriously cant wait till the holidays cuz i really need some cheering up. later days...