Life
I havent written in this thing in a while but I guess i'll start now. Things are finally starting to pick up. I have a job, i got my license, i have been taking good care of myself. Ive been staying away from guys I think could be bad for me. Unfortunately that means i've been staying away from guys period. I have never been more lonely in my entire life. Not to mention.. i have never been more short tempered in my life. It really sucks at times, sometimes I dont want to go out at all or talk to anyone. And actually its been like that a lot lately. Theres only a handful of people I can talk to anymore, that I feel compfortable around. I hate feeling this way... it's not me at all. But hopefully i'll come out of that.
I feel like i've not neccessarly lost some of my friends, but morely drifted apart from them. I feel like some friendships will never be the same.. and I find myself very frustrated over that lately. I am not going to name anyone specific because I am counting in my head 4 right now that I can think of. And they were all very close friends of mine... but I guess when you fall inlove-- it makes it harder to keep in contact with the rest of the world. Yeah, ive been there. And im not calling anyone out or being sarcastic at all. But these are friends that once I could give a call and talk to... and now... I just can't anymore. It really sucks.
This summer should be sweet though. I can't wait to start making money... I am just starting to become a tan-o-holic. I am actually getting dark! It's so nice :-) I jog almost everyday. Sammie Jo & I were thinking about joining a gym this summer. I am going to be spending a lot of time with her this summer seeing that I will be working with her! This may sound maybe superficial but I really can't wait to go out with my friends, meet more people and get drunk until i throw up. Bascailly I want to have a good time. Hey, im 21 and im single. Last summer was great. I want this summer to be even better.
And I hate that word. Lonely. I never use it. I feel like a loser when I use that word. But I notice that a lot of people arent afraid to use it. And since ive litterly never been more lonely in my life, I thought i'd start now.
But on the happiest note of all...After my break up with Steve, I made a little list of goals that I wanted to accomplish by the end of the year....and IVE ACCOMPLISHED ALL OF THEM ALREADY AND ITS ONLY MAY! So I am extremely proud of myself for that one. I can only make more goals to set... and aim even higher. I am loving life even though it sometimes throws the downs. I know If i'm patient something good will come my way.
I feel like i've not neccessarly lost some of my friends, but morely drifted apart from them. I feel like some friendships will never be the same.. and I find myself very frustrated over that lately. I am not going to name anyone specific because I am counting in my head 4 right now that I can think of. And they were all very close friends of mine... but I guess when you fall inlove-- it makes it harder to keep in contact with the rest of the world. Yeah, ive been there. And im not calling anyone out or being sarcastic at all. But these are friends that once I could give a call and talk to... and now... I just can't anymore. It really sucks.
This summer should be sweet though. I can't wait to start making money... I am just starting to become a tan-o-holic. I am actually getting dark! It's so nice :-) I jog almost everyday. Sammie Jo & I were thinking about joining a gym this summer. I am going to be spending a lot of time with her this summer seeing that I will be working with her! This may sound maybe superficial but I really can't wait to go out with my friends, meet more people and get drunk until i throw up. Bascailly I want to have a good time. Hey, im 21 and im single. Last summer was great. I want this summer to be even better.
And I hate that word. Lonely. I never use it. I feel like a loser when I use that word. But I notice that a lot of people arent afraid to use it. And since ive litterly never been more lonely in my life, I thought i'd start now.
But on the happiest note of all...After my break up with Steve, I made a little list of goals that I wanted to accomplish by the end of the year....and IVE ACCOMPLISHED ALL OF THEM ALREADY AND ITS ONLY MAY! So I am extremely proud of myself for that one. I can only make more goals to set... and aim even higher. I am loving life even though it sometimes throws the downs. I know If i'm patient something good will come my way.