2020 update
What a year... terrible year.
First of all, the worst news ever, Arashi announced an hiatus. All my 11 years of fangirl will come to an end. They have impacted my life so so much. As as kid who was lonely and depressed, they give me hope and the will to live again. All I can say is thank you Arashi, thank you Sho, thank you Nino, thank you Matsujun, thank you Aiba, and thank you Ohno. To celebrate the end, they decided to finally be more open to international fans, by opening social media. All my life, trying to get their content in the darkweb, who would have thought it will be so accessible now hahaha I really wish that one day they will come back and that for sure I will be there to see them in person as it is my dream.
Now, the famous virus changed our lives forever. I wish it would go away. Life was so much easier before, we didn't have to worry about it people and constantly cleaning our stuffs. My biggest worry is my father health, I must be really careful so he doesn't get the virus as it is the worst thing for his condition.
I found a new job, it pays well, but oh my god. I feel so depressed going to work. For 2021, I will for sure change my job. I cannot keep working there. Lesson learned, you need to find a job which you will be happy at.
I have an new boyfriend. He is not perfect, but we will work together on our relationship as I'm not perfect either. He is ambitious that is what I really like about him. It makes me more motivated to work harder and have a happier life.
This year 2020, I will be honest, I felt terrible. It impacted so much in my mental health. I was so depressed. So many nights, I just started crying for no reason really. I just wanted to go away, away from my current life. I've almost given up. I hope you will see me writing here again in 2022 and that only good things happened from now on.
My wish for 2021: find a new job, learn on how to invest, finally move out and live by myself, able to travel back to Japan.
See you in 2022.
DD