I aint had a crush in years
There's this boy that I have a huge crush on that works with me. It's not the normal "ooh he's cute" crush. It's the "I can't talk when ever he is around me" type crush. And I'm not a shy person, so it's really weird to me that I'm acting like this. He knows that I'm interested in him, but we have yet to hold a real conversation. I want to ask him what he's doin for New Years, but for some reason I'm afraid of rejection. That also is unusual. Normally I could care less what you think of me, or how I look when I leave my house. I notice myself getting up and extra 20 minutes early in the morning when I know that he has to work just so I can do my hair and my make-up incase I run into him. He always smiles at me when he sees me and my friends say that they catch him looking at me when we're in the same room. I get all flushed whenever I see him. Hopefully I see him sometime soon so I can get a real conversation going.... Wish me luck