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I didn't do anything wrong, but his silent treatment makes me feel like I did.
I stood my ground in the face of a bully and I didn't allow myself to fall into the role as a victim.
It still felt like failure when he packed his shit and left.
He tried to pass off his insecurities and his part of the guilt by producing a label called "my issues from the past". He tried to get my goat by raising his voice and recasting my words as assaults against me. I wanted a rational conversation, I got a whole lot of mess.
"You had better figure out what it is you want."
and now i believe i have:
I want someone I can start a life with, someone who is separate while we are still together, someone who is compatible with me in terms of respect and temperament.
I want a knight who knows how to treat a lady and in this day and age, the knights have less and less ways to show how gallant they are and more and more ways that ladies infringe upon their territory.
I want the whole world in my partner and I want him to want the whole world for me.
I want to speak without words and hear my thoughts spoken from his lips.
I want a oneness that can withstand imperfection and an understanding that supercedes all hindrances.
I don't know what glue held us together, but the honeymoon phase has now ended.
i await to see how his gaze changes without infatuation to veil his sight.
I stood my ground in the face of a bully and I didn't allow myself to fall into the role as a victim.
It still felt like failure when he packed his shit and left.
He tried to pass off his insecurities and his part of the guilt by producing a label called "my issues from the past". He tried to get my goat by raising his voice and recasting my words as assaults against me. I wanted a rational conversation, I got a whole lot of mess.
"You had better figure out what it is you want."
and now i believe i have:
I want someone I can start a life with, someone who is separate while we are still together, someone who is compatible with me in terms of respect and temperament.
I want a knight who knows how to treat a lady and in this day and age, the knights have less and less ways to show how gallant they are and more and more ways that ladies infringe upon their territory.
I want the whole world in my partner and I want him to want the whole world for me.
I want to speak without words and hear my thoughts spoken from his lips.
I want a oneness that can withstand imperfection and an understanding that supercedes all hindrances.
I don't know what glue held us together, but the honeymoon phase has now ended.
i await to see how his gaze changes without infatuation to veil his sight.