if we go down, we go down together, best friends means...
this entry is for me. so dont post if you are going to have something shitty to say.
i dont think people always realize what they are throwing away when they throw things away.
For the last nine years of my life ive had the same best friend. i moved here in 5th grade. She was the 'cool' kid in the 5th grade with her best friend Alicia. Man, did i want to know those girls. things were rough at first. they would set me up to take a fall. but in the end. we all started to hang. then came 6th grade. i was still kinda the 3rd wheel. but then, alicia had to move. So, holly and i were undetachable. All the way through middle school. we were so silly. we would beg our parents to stay the night with each other on weekdays. say we had projects that we had to do together. Sometimes it worked sometimes it didnt. We wore our PJ's to school, and got in trouble together. Everything was always together, never seperate. And everyone knew that. if my name was said Hollys followed, if hers was said mine followed.
went to high school. started to have to grow up. started having real relationships. started feeling like we had broken hearts [now today we realize they were bull shit till justin and kyle came along] we never faught. ever. we hated girls. through everything we were always there for each other. always there to listin. always there to vent to. always there to cry on. always there to laugh with. always there to hug. always there.
11th grade. we met them. oh yeah. you know. them. Justin Charles Dugan, and Christopher Kyle Hudgins. Who ever knew these would be the boys to steal our hearts away. The neatest thing was, we both fell in love together. Then kyle and holly broke up. Jus and i had our ups and downs. But we were always still there for each other.
Somewhere in between then and now. things got all messed up. And the thing is. Holly and i arent used to fighting. we arent used to being apart. and now that we are, i feel like we dont know how to fix things. we are in a rut. i know that i love her. i know that i want her to be the one standing next to me on my wedding day. i know that when i have my first baby she will be the second to hold it [jus first]. i want her to grow old with me. i dont want our memories and laughs to stop here. i want them to go. forever. hollys and my friendship, i always thought was unbreakable. i still do. i always thought if this couldnt work, then i have no faith for any other friendships. we were always such a good team. life is so short. and holly has seen how short it is, shes witnissed someones death at a young age, she saw how much it hurt the family. holly and i throwing away our friendship is like giving up on life. because ive planned the rest of my life with her in it. and without her. its not going to be right.
i love her.
ive never cared for someone so much. shes as close as it gets to being blood. [but not] she knows me better than anyone. so for all you people out there that say im so shitty. you dont even know me. dont judge me. and dont act like you do.
its hard to go day by day without the person thats been with you the last 9 years not in that day. we called each other 30 times a day. right when we woke up. right when we closed our eyes. now i wake up and wonder if she will call. or if i call, will she want to talk.
im ready to make things work. if you are Hol. youre my sunshine. and latly virginia has been looking pretty cloudy on my side of town.
i dont think people always realize what they are throwing away when they throw things away.
For the last nine years of my life ive had the same best friend. i moved here in 5th grade. She was the 'cool' kid in the 5th grade with her best friend Alicia. Man, did i want to know those girls. things were rough at first. they would set me up to take a fall. but in the end. we all started to hang. then came 6th grade. i was still kinda the 3rd wheel. but then, alicia had to move. So, holly and i were undetachable. All the way through middle school. we were so silly. we would beg our parents to stay the night with each other on weekdays. say we had projects that we had to do together. Sometimes it worked sometimes it didnt. We wore our PJ's to school, and got in trouble together. Everything was always together, never seperate. And everyone knew that. if my name was said Hollys followed, if hers was said mine followed.
went to high school. started to have to grow up. started having real relationships. started feeling like we had broken hearts [now today we realize they were bull shit till justin and kyle came along] we never faught. ever. we hated girls. through everything we were always there for each other. always there to listin. always there to vent to. always there to cry on. always there to laugh with. always there to hug. always there.
11th grade. we met them. oh yeah. you know. them. Justin Charles Dugan, and Christopher Kyle Hudgins. Who ever knew these would be the boys to steal our hearts away. The neatest thing was, we both fell in love together. Then kyle and holly broke up. Jus and i had our ups and downs. But we were always still there for each other.
Somewhere in between then and now. things got all messed up. And the thing is. Holly and i arent used to fighting. we arent used to being apart. and now that we are, i feel like we dont know how to fix things. we are in a rut. i know that i love her. i know that i want her to be the one standing next to me on my wedding day. i know that when i have my first baby she will be the second to hold it [jus first]. i want her to grow old with me. i dont want our memories and laughs to stop here. i want them to go. forever. hollys and my friendship, i always thought was unbreakable. i still do. i always thought if this couldnt work, then i have no faith for any other friendships. we were always such a good team. life is so short. and holly has seen how short it is, shes witnissed someones death at a young age, she saw how much it hurt the family. holly and i throwing away our friendship is like giving up on life. because ive planned the rest of my life with her in it. and without her. its not going to be right.
i love her.
ive never cared for someone so much. shes as close as it gets to being blood. [but not] she knows me better than anyone. so for all you people out there that say im so shitty. you dont even know me. dont judge me. and dont act like you do.
its hard to go day by day without the person thats been with you the last 9 years not in that day. we called each other 30 times a day. right when we woke up. right when we closed our eyes. now i wake up and wonder if she will call. or if i call, will she want to talk.
im ready to make things work. if you are Hol. youre my sunshine. and latly virginia has been looking pretty cloudy on my side of town.