hmmm
so. i made a decision this weekend that i'm moving to columbus. i can't take it anymore. there's nothing here that i care about anymore. i like lloyd but that's not enough reason to stay right now. i'm not sure what to think about him either. a year and a half ago i'd have been all over him. hell, i was all over him! he's a great guy! but damn it. he's not jon. but, then again, jon has vida all over him. ugh. how annoying. then there's the part of me that just wants to say fuck you all and be alone. i refuse to put up with being second best. to anyone or anything. that's not what i want. i want to be happy. have a family. have a life, a home, vacations, good job, love. that's not too much to ask is it??