Damned if I Needed You

[missbadazz007]

I try to breathe
But my lungs won't let me
I try to hold it in
But my shoulder's getting heavy
It's like I died and went to hell
Cuz heaven wouldn't except me
Help me
Please
Cuz my eyes can't see
I ain't did shit to the world
Yet it's hating on me
Why
I don't know
Why all the secrecy
I asked for joy and got pain
With a life full of misery
It's sickening
And at the same time sad
I hate my life
I hate my mom
And you know I hate my step-dad
Fuck they ass
Shit
They say fuck me
But twenty years from now
Tell me who the fuck they'll need
Who the fuck they'll gonna see
All on the screen
Saying "That's my baby"
Everytime I hit the scene
I'mma hear the scream
But I ain't gone show no love
I'mma show them stupid
Like the average black gurl
Like life is all about sex
We don't think of nothing else
And how I always followed crowds
Cuz I can't just be myself
I can't just stand alone
Cuz I gotta have attention
I wanna be the girl
That everybody wanna mention
I gotta be singled out
Staying in the spot light
She so wild
Just look at her
Staying out all night
Can't follow curfew
Motherfucker fuck you
I might not be your equal
But I'd be damned if I ain't human too
I play the game
But refuse to follow rules
Cuz when I finally make it
I'd be damned if I needed you