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Busy weekend! I feel like I didnt stop! I didnt wake up until 245pm today and I took a hardy nap for 2 hours - WTF???
My mind is troubled. So many things looping around. I cant let go. It hurts but the pain is comfortable like an old friend. The hole is there - as big as ever. I continue to try but its never filled. Unattainable and frustrating. I just wish everything would stop so I could get my breath back and catch up to you. Im exhausted from running. I need reprieve. You keep moving and things keep changing and im afraid ive stagnated again.
Its like looking through glass - obvious and see-through. Am I referring to myself or to you? Im not even sure I know.
Although I live my life like an open book very few know what they are reading. Dont presume to know things that you have no idea about.
Dont mistake this as a sign of misery - I am as content as most. I guess im just worried that the future I had always banked on may never come to fruition.
My mind is troubled. So many things looping around. I cant let go. It hurts but the pain is comfortable like an old friend. The hole is there - as big as ever. I continue to try but its never filled. Unattainable and frustrating. I just wish everything would stop so I could get my breath back and catch up to you. Im exhausted from running. I need reprieve. You keep moving and things keep changing and im afraid ive stagnated again.
Its like looking through glass - obvious and see-through. Am I referring to myself or to you? Im not even sure I know.
Although I live my life like an open book very few know what they are reading. Dont presume to know things that you have no idea about.
Dont mistake this as a sign of misery - I am as content as most. I guess im just worried that the future I had always banked on may never come to fruition.