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its only been like a million years since i have updated this. AWESOME!
i was thinking about Mike and i was like "WTF HAPPENED!?" me and him used to always update our LJs like every other day.. and then make everyone read them.. and now i just completely lack any motivation to update or maybe i just dont care... either way! I'm going to try to update more now though. It's not like i have anything better to do at the moment anyways.anyways.. TO THE RANDOM THOUGHTS!
*its a little pathetic that out of 21 failed relationships... i am still friends with only 3 of them.. and last night I had a dream that my boyfriend (well mypretend boyfriend in my dream) asked me to randomly marry him at last minute and i said yes and then i put on this weird red and orange dress for the wedding (it looked fuckin awesome though) but anyways i was looking in the mirror and i started having a panic attack... ok so i walked out of the bathroom and hugged my boyfriend and then his dad took my hand and we walked to the living room and i started to panic again and i told him i had to run out to go pick up some things... so i ran into my room and threw all my shit into my suitecase and ran out... WTF DOES THAT MEAN!? i look into my dreams too much.
* The other day I had realized how much everything in my life has changed... I hate growing up.. and this whole maturing thing.. its a load of BS i want to be 12 again. then the only thing i would have to worry about is what i should wear to the middle school dances.
*since when did everyone become such potheads and druggies.. everyone who was once innocent has been corrupted and its sad yet slightly entertaining.
* I went to barnes n noble the other day..... to ride the escalators.... then i left... it was fun.
* so july 25th im Heading to NJ to take care of my mom while she heals from surgery and then after that i leave for CA and will probably spend the rest of august there. Then when I get back i will be able to really look for jobs. theres no point in looking if i wouldnt even be able to do it till september.
* someone should come with me to the tattoo shop so I can figure out what i want next.
*OK since im going through a coffee withdrawal I'm going to head out to starbucks. BYE<3
i was thinking about Mike and i was like "WTF HAPPENED!?" me and him used to always update our LJs like every other day.. and then make everyone read them.. and now i just completely lack any motivation to update or maybe i just dont care... either way! I'm going to try to update more now though. It's not like i have anything better to do at the moment anyways.anyways.. TO THE RANDOM THOUGHTS!
*its a little pathetic that out of 21 failed relationships... i am still friends with only 3 of them.. and last night I had a dream that my boyfriend (well mypretend boyfriend in my dream) asked me to randomly marry him at last minute and i said yes and then i put on this weird red and orange dress for the wedding (it looked fuckin awesome though) but anyways i was looking in the mirror and i started having a panic attack... ok so i walked out of the bathroom and hugged my boyfriend and then his dad took my hand and we walked to the living room and i started to panic again and i told him i had to run out to go pick up some things... so i ran into my room and threw all my shit into my suitecase and ran out... WTF DOES THAT MEAN!? i look into my dreams too much.
* The other day I had realized how much everything in my life has changed... I hate growing up.. and this whole maturing thing.. its a load of BS i want to be 12 again. then the only thing i would have to worry about is what i should wear to the middle school dances.
*since when did everyone become such potheads and druggies.. everyone who was once innocent has been corrupted and its sad yet slightly entertaining.
* I went to barnes n noble the other day..... to ride the escalators.... then i left... it was fun.
* so july 25th im Heading to NJ to take care of my mom while she heals from surgery and then after that i leave for CA and will probably spend the rest of august there. Then when I get back i will be able to really look for jobs. theres no point in looking if i wouldnt even be able to do it till september.
* someone should come with me to the tattoo shop so I can figure out what i want next.
*OK since im going through a coffee withdrawal I'm going to head out to starbucks. BYE<3