Meh.
I fell and have felt horribly disillusioned in the past few weeks.
Once again, I have no choice, absolutely no choice to be the breadwinner... of this family. It pisses me off. Beyond all else. but, it has to happen. I KNOW that.
The only highlight in my life right now is Sera. I WANT to spend more time with her, but I can't. With work the way it is, and the daycare system as it is, Seven HAS to keep his low ass hell paying job so he can get the days off we need to happen.
It doesn't help that I've had 7 colds in 3 months. And I start my knew schedule today. It's not his fault, but I can't help feeling that if he could Find a job, that pays my wage (which is easy now) that I could spend more time at home.
That's what I want, but what I will never get.
Ever.
Once again, I have no choice, absolutely no choice to be the breadwinner... of this family. It pisses me off. Beyond all else. but, it has to happen. I KNOW that.
The only highlight in my life right now is Sera. I WANT to spend more time with her, but I can't. With work the way it is, and the daycare system as it is, Seven HAS to keep his low ass hell paying job so he can get the days off we need to happen.
It doesn't help that I've had 7 colds in 3 months. And I start my knew schedule today. It's not his fault, but I can't help feeling that if he could Find a job, that pays my wage (which is easy now) that I could spend more time at home.
That's what I want, but what I will never get.
Ever.